letters // yoonmin

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October 24th, 2017

Park Jimin,

I went back to the hospital today. They still won't let me see you.

Taeyeon hasn't come to see you yet. I don't think she was going to. She knows that you're in the hospital, but she just doesn't care. She's never cared. You just never noticed.

I've seen her out with other guys. It's nothing new. It happened before all of this shit. I just never told you because I knew it would crush you.

She probably thinks you're going to die. That's why she's already found other guys. Notice that guys is plural.

You deserve better than her. She cheats on you. A lot. More than you know.

I remember the first time it happened. She wasn't very careful and you caught her. But, since you loved her, you gave her another chance.

You thought she stopped. She just got better at hiding it.

You deserve someone who doesn't cheat. Someone who loves you unconditionally.

That person might have been in front of you the whole time. You just never paid attention. You were blind to the fact that you weren't in a healthy relationship. You were blinded by what you thought was love.

I wish Taeyeon would've just broken up with you.

She didn't need to put you through this pain. Never knowing when she would come home from nights out. Never knowing if she would come home.

You weren't the only one being hurt. I was hurting from seeing her put you through this.

I could've treated you better.

If only you would've let me.

But, you didn't. So.

I've been feeling kinda crappy lately. I think it's stress from you being in the hospital.

It's probably just guilt.

Because it's my fault.

What happened to you was my fault.

And I'm sorry.

I miss you more and more with each passing day.

Stay strong,

Yoongi