letters // yoonmin

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October 29th, 2017

Park Jimin,

Lately, I've been thinking about all the times we spent together before your accident. I miss those times.

You're my best friend and it's been very lonely without you.

Well I mean, I technically do spend time with you, you're just always unconscious.

I still remember the first time we met. I had stopped at that coffee shop on the corner by my apartment on my way to work. It was about five in the morning, and I was exhausted as hell. I had gotten my coffee and was rushing out the door because I was going to be late, and I didn't see the small adorable bean that walked through the door.

You were half asleep and stumbling through the doorway when I ran into you. You tripped and fell on top of me. I can still perfectly see the dorky smile on your face as you said, "Wow, I just fell for you."

And that fluttering feeling in my stomach and the pounding of my heart in my chest that I felt when I looked into your eyes. I felt that every time you walked into the room. Every time you smiled at me. 

We had exchanged numbers, and we would text and call each other every day. You became my best friend. You made me so happy. 

And then I fell in love with you. 

The problem with that was that you were dating someone. Also the fact that that person happened to be a girl. Which meant you're straight. 

Even though you had a girlfriend, I couldn't help but love you even more with each day. Sometimes it even felt like you loved me back.

Taeyeon would never be home, so you would always come stay at my place because you got lonely. We spent almost all of our time together. Honestly, we seemed more like a couple than you and Taeyeon ever did. 

She was with you because you loved her, and she needed the attention to survive. She only wants attention. She doesn't care about anyone's lives except for her own.

If only we didn't just seem like a couple. If only we were more than that.

Yoongi