I have always had broken love, it's not what you think it is. I don't love someone who doesn't love me back. I can't feel it. I can't feel the love everyone wants in their life. I don't feel the butterflies, the turning in my stomach, the sickness that is strangly satisfying. I feel nothing like this, I'm just empty and try over and over again to feel this glory. I have always lied to myself, wanting more and more to feel the feelings others do. I pretend to be like everyone else. I manipulate my own feelings to create happiness for others. I try so hard yet I can't do it enough. It's still not real.
