I didn't think this through. This could never work. How could he love me? We're nothing alike. We're from two totally different worlds. We have two totally different mindsets. This will never work out.
I stood there. In the mirror contemplating my next move. Do I want to risk it all for a guy? This isn't me. I held the edge of the counter and rocked back and forth on my toes. I looked down at the sink as I forced back tears. This isn't me. I'm not that girl. I'm not this girl. I can't do this. I looked at myself in the mirror again. My phone lit up with a notification from "babe." He wanted to know if I was ready. Ready for what? To betray my family & go against my raising? God I'm never ready to do that. My phone lit up again .. a notification from "best." Good luck tonight .. it read. Gosh I needed all the luck i could get. I decided to put on my big girl panties & man up. I'm 17.. what am I so worried about? This is only my first mistake. The first time I've gone against my upbringing. They'll forgive me.
