Finding My Love

17- Craziness

We supposed to be in love, til it ain't no breaking up - Kevin gates

Dionte

I have to tell Zabrina some news I been keeping from her for years. I just pulled up to her house, damn I ain't ready to tell her but I am, It's complicated as fuck.

I get out my car and up to the door and knock. The door opens and Zabrina is standing there with these small ass gym shorts with her ass hanging out, she look sexy."Hey cousin what's up." she greets hugging "Nothing much, but I do need to talk to you about something though." I say she steps aside letting me in, I walk in and sit on the couch. She walks up to me and sits down "what do you want to tell me?" she asks, I blow "Well, knowing me I'm going to get to the point, first of all I ain't your real cousin, you were adopted and I am in love with you." I say quickly, she is just starting in disbelief, "Wh.....what? And you tell me now! Get the fuck OUT!" she scream, she crying and screaming "get out", "You don't want to hear what I got to say?" I ask here standing up "why would you keep something like that from me for so long?" she asks "I ain't even know how to tell you, and I didn't want to tell. I thought yo nigga was gonna tell you, anyway." I say, that man knew all these years so she need to be on his case.

Zabrina

I run upstairs, I swear I am about to kill Jhakine foreal. How could he keep something like this from me, oh gosh. I open the door and run up on him and slap the shit out "What the fuck wrong with you." he asks holding his face, OMG, I am so mad "Did you know I was adopted?" I ask him, his whole face change "I didn't think you would care" he mumble not looking at me. I know he ain't just say that, why wouldn't I care to him, sometimes I think I fell in love with a complete idiot.

I draw back and punch him "You an idiot. Why wouldn't I care about being adopted?" I ask really wanting to know "You hate yo fucking parents so I figured you wouldn't care." he say getting up and walking in the bathroom. I walk in after him "that means nothing, I'm pretty sure you would be punching holes in the wall and shit if I kept something like that away from you." I say putting my hand on my hip, "Alright Zabrina you right I'm wrong" he says walking around me to get out the door. I walk in the walk in closet and get my purple Nike duffel bag out and put some clothes in it to stay overnight, I don't know where I'm going to go but I'm not staying in here with him. "Where you going?" he asks grabbing the duffel bag and putting it back in the closet, before he can close the closet door. I walk up to him and shove him out the way "Move!" I snap on him, he laughs "Stop. Cause you ain't going nowhere." he says pushing me on the bed "Alright bet, motherfucka." I say grabbing my duffel bag and put my to go hygiene stuff in the bag. I still love him but I don't want to see or talk to him right now. He looking at me like I'm crazy "You leaving over some little petty shit?" he asks "No! This ain't some little petty argument, this is a really big deal, Mane!" I snap on him "fine go, I give up, you being a bitch." he says, I look at him in disbelief "Sense I'm being a so called bitch, Calliea not yours!" I blurt out, I didn't mean to say that, oh no!

He just sitting on the bed staring at the wall for an hour now "I didn't mean to say that, but you just made me real mad and now just like how you kept something big from me I kept something big from you and I didn't think you would care" I moke him he look at me like all the feelings he had towards me dropped "Get fuck out bitch before I kill your stupid ass!"he yell at me standing up "Fuck You!" I scream at him storming out. I hate him so much right now foreal! I hear him run up behind me and push me down the stairs before I could turn around. I scream hitting the floor. I weakly get up and grab Apollo bat then run behind him and start beating the shit out of him, I am really releasing a lot of built up anger. I drop the bat, breaking down crying "Get the fuck out with that stupid ass crying" he demands sitting on the floor with a bloody nose and bruises. I get up and walk out with my stuff "Don't fucking call me either!" he yell after me. Fuck him I will kill him right now, I pull out the gun I hid in me in my duffel bag and aimed at his head "Fuck you Jhakine, I will kill you!" I scream, I am glad Carlton has the kids. He grabs a gun "Kill me then, bitch!" He yells taking his gun off safety. He walks down stairs then stands in front of me to be honest, I'm really scared. This nigga got real bad mental issues and he ain't take his pills today. He lean in close then grabs my chin "I love you." he say wrapping his other arm around me. Jhakine is bipolar really bipolar.

He lets me go then sits on the stairs leaning against the rail talking to him self about how he killed a nigga over some bitch, knowing that he was talking about me. I start to walk away slowly "Come here bitch" he demands looking at me, I'm very scared right now so I just do what he says and I sit next to him, he continues his conversation with him self. I can't live like this, cause this ain't love, not by a long shot.

Jhakine wraps his arms around me, then starts kissing me on my neck. I pull away from him "Are you okay?" I ask looking at, he just staring at me like he wants to fuck the shit out of me.

He really ain't scaring me no more at this point, I love him way too much to leave him but right now I just need to get out of the same place as him, cause I might kill him in his sleep. He start talking to him self again, I can't leave him like this he might hurt him self, though . Well I have no choice but to stay here and just try to work it out, he stands then walks up stairs and I follow him. He stop and look at me like I'm crazy "Bitch! Why the fuck you following me?" he asks I roll my eyes then walk past him and slam door in his face. The door swing open and he wraps on arm around my waist and grab my chin while standing behind me "Why you slammed that damn door on me?"he asks really pissed that he almost growled at me" Cause disrespectful niggas don't get respected. "I answer, he smile" I love you so much. "he admits kissing me, I don't know what's wrong with me, but I'm kissing back.

We just having a sloppy make out session, and I'm loving it so much but he pull away from me" I love you. "he mumbles kissing me" I love you too."I admit. Today has just been a long crazy day,damn.

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