Dreams||Seungjun+Jihun (KNK)

6

Seungjun's P.O.V

"J-Jihun?" I wait for a response. It was all still quiet. I make my way to the curtains and open them slightly allowing the sunlight to come through, making everything in the room clear.

"Jihun? Are you awake?" I try again.

"Mhhhh..." I hear him groan, turning around facing me. Slowly Jihun opens his eyes. "S-Seungjun? What are you doing here?" He sits on the bed.

"I came to say sorry."

"I don't want to hear it. I don't know why I'm feeling this way, but I really don't want to see you right now." Jihun stands up and walks towards the bathroom. I keep looking at him getting a bit anxious.

"How am I going to explain this?" I mumble to myself.

I wait until he comes back. I take a sit on the end of the bed and close my eyes.

I hear the door open again, and as I look up I see a sad looking Jihun.

"Didn't I tell you to go?"

"I can't."

"Why? You've passed the whole week not wanting to see me! You didn't even say hi or worse, look at me!" Jihun shouts clearly annoyed. "What do you expect me to do? Open my heart and forget everything?"

"J-Jihun, please-"

"No stop! You really hurt me." Jihun interrupts walking closer to me. I stand up tears starting to overflow my eyes.

I close the gap between us as I put both my hands on Jihun's shoulders.

"Please just listen. I know what I did was wrong. I know I hurt you, but don't you think I was also suffering?" I look him in the eyes, tears streaming out from both of us. "This has been horrible for me."

"Then why did you do it?"

"That's why I'm here. I'm going to tell you everything, so please just listen."

I take a sit again at the bed, Jihun following shortly after and taking a sit next to me.

"For a while now, I've been getting these d-dreams... I know it sounds weird, but they have made me really confused."

"You telling me you've been ignoring me because of some dreams?" Jihun asks.

"Y-Yeah... They were about us. They started a few months ago, and as time passes they keep getting worse." 

"What do you mean worse?"

"Well, it's just that as each dream passes, we seem to get closer and closer." I look at the floor, my heart beating fast  at how scared I was. Will he hate me now?

"That doesn't explain why you've been avoiding me all this time."

"The last few dreams have been... Weird." This was harder to explain than I thought. "Jihun you have to understand that these dreams are not normal and are making me extremely confused."

"Elaborate." Jihun says with annoyance in his tone.

"At first they were normal, for example us going to school or eating out, but now they are way beyond the things we do. In them w-we are much closer but as more than f-friends..." I blush looking away waiting painfully for a reply.

"Ah... B-But if that's the reason, why didn't you talk to me earlier? Why did you have to ignore me?" Jihun finally speaks breaking the silence that had starting to form.

"Well after a few days of not seeing you as much, the dreams kinda stopped. I felt horrible for what I was doing, but I was starting to feel really awkward around you."

"Seungjun, they're just dreams..." I look at him seeing his sad face once again, as he replies.

"If they're just dreams then why do I feel this way? Why do I wake up with my heart racing? Why did I feel so depressed this week?" I shout, letting it all out. All these questions were in my chest, building up my anger and sadness.

"I-I d-don't know... Seungjun, I'm sorry."

"Why are you sorry. I'm the one that should be saying sorry!" I was feeling all kinds of emotions and I didn't know if I would be able to stop until everything was out my chest.

"I'm sorry for jumping to conclusions straight away." Jihun says with a quiet voice. 

"Jihun I feel so bad. I never knew how much this would hurt you. I just wanted to be around you like normal." Small tears made their way down once again. "I'm sorry. To your mum too."

As I was looking down at the floor, I feel a pair of arms wrap around my shoulders.

"Let's forget all this. Let's go back to normal." I hear Jihun's soothing voice say.

"I can't. They will come back." I whisper.

"Seungjun just try and ignore them if they're bad,  or just tell me what happens in them so you can at least, get it out of your chest, okay?"

"Okay."

After all the sadness and anger we decided to turn on the TV and watch something. Then as we were doing so, Jihun's mum calls us down for dinner.

"Boys! Come downstairs and eat!"

"Already? What time is it?"Jihun asks me.

"7 pm." I reply looking at my phone.

We make our way downstairs and take a sit at the table, already full with amazing food.

"It's good to see you two together again." Says Mrs. Kim smiling at us. The two of us smile looking at each other. "Why don't you stay over, Seungjunie? I already told your mum."

"Ahhh..." I look at her then at Jihun. Even though I have slept over here lots of times, today I felt nervous. "Sure. Thank Mrs. Kim." I decide with a kind smile.

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Hi! ^_^

How are you all?

Now that Christmas is near I have been listening to Zzang Christmas by BESTie soooo much! Not only is it an amazing song, but it always makes me happy seeing the boys. Ahah

Anyway, I will try and write another chapter before this year ends, so until then,

Byeee