Am I Okay? [Incomplete]

Chapter 3

It seems like I've been waiting forever from a message from him. But it's only been a few hours, I look at my phone and realise it's a lot later than I thought so I try and take my mind off Brandon and fall asleep.

About 15 minutes later I'm awoken again by the buzzing of my phone ringing. It's an unknown number. I answer it softly "Hello?"
"I'm sorry, did I wake you?" I hear his voice, gentle. I immediately know it's Liam.
"You did, but it's okay, I haven't been asleep long" I reply, trying to disguise the fact that I'm smiling.
"Well, I thought I'd surprise you by calling you rather than texting you."
"As much as I appreciate the thought," I begin "I'm normally asleep by now so it's a bad time to call me."
"Note taken," He responds "I'll make sure I call you during the day."
"I don't object to that, it's nice to have someone to talk to." I giggle.

We end up talking for the majority of the night, the next time I look at the time it's the early hours of the morning, so I say " I have to go now because I need to sleep, it's been nice talking."

I'm about to hang up when he replies with "well do me one favour?"
"Depends" I respond hesitantly.
"Don't give up."
I smile and say "we will see about that, you can see tomorrow if you walk to school with me?"
"I would love to, there's something I need to tell you actually." 
"I'll meet you at yours tomorrow then, goodnight" I reply trying tomorrow take it off topic.
"Goodnight" He says and hangs up.

For the rest of that night he appears in all my dreams and is all I can think about. All I'm wondering is what he wants to say to me. Is it good or bad?

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That next morning I find myself out of bed easier than ever and get myself ready as quick as possible. As soon as I'm ready I shout up to my mum "I'm going now."
As per usual she responds with "okay. Have a good day, love you"

I shut the door behind me, pick up my phone, find contacts and hover over his name, next thing I know it's ringing, and my heart is thumping.
"Well hello, this is a nice surprise." He answers
"I'm only calling to say I'm making my way up to yours now." I say, simply.
He questions me subtly "Well that's kinda disappointing, will you at least stay on the phone to me whilst you walk here?"
"I can't" I start, "I need to think about some stuff but I'll let you know when I get to you. Just wait outside for me so I know definitely where to go, I should be about 10 minutes." With that I hang up and start walking.

The "stuff" I need to think about is mostly me hating on myself. I can't like him, not as more than I friend I know how this will go. He probably doesn't like me and if he does then we will probably date a while and then I'll start doubting myself and end things. The next day I'll be regretting it. It happened last year with a girl I really liked. I'm not sure I'm ready to put myself through that again.

The next thing I know I hear him calling out to me. Fuck. I almost walked past him. I stop and walk over to him, he hugs me and starts a conversation.

I interrupt what he's saying and say "I thought you needed to talk to me about something, I know I was half asleep but I still heard it."
"Oh yeah, ahaha I was completely distracted" He laughs, quite nervously.
His nervousness makes me curious, "distracted by what?"
"You're beautiful." He states
I'm full of so many questions right now so I ask the first one to come out my mouth "was that why you're distracted, or what you need to tell me?"
"Distracted," He begins, "what i need to tell you is far more important."
"Then go ahead and say it," I say "We're almost at school so you better hurry."
"Okay, okay!" He pauses for a second, "wow this is a nerve racking thing to say, erm.... I really don't know how to say this subtly so I'm just gonna go ahead and say it blankly. I think I have feelings for you."
I'm shocked to hear those words, and I can barely speak, but I do manage the word "wow."
"Is that all you can say?" He laughs
"No, no, no, it's just surprising to hear and I need a minute to process it aha" I say nervously. Do i tell him I like him? Or should I leave it?

There's was still about 5 minutes left of the walk to school and we were in awkward silence, so in a moment of panic I say "I think I like you too," although I say it louder than is a was meant to.
"Well there's no need to shout about it," He laughs, relieving the tension and awkwardness.

We manage to engage in normal conversation until we get to school, avoiding the topic and much as possible. When we get in school I'm about to turn off and go into my tutor when Liam stops me.
"Have you not got anywhere to go?" He asks
"No, my "friends" are all embarrassed by me." I reply
"Come hang with me then, my friends won't care, they'll like you," He says convincingly.

So I follow him until the bell goes, I turn and ask him where his form room is, he tells me it's the top floor, far corridor, same place as mine, so I walk with him.

When we get there he turns and hugs me, before he let's go he whispers into my ear "i love you." I smile and walk away.

All through tutor I think about how stupid that was of me. I should've said it back. I get fed up of these stupid thoughts and take my phone out, find his name and message him saying "i love you too"

A few minutes later he messages me back saying "imagine me smiling. That's what I look like right now."