Depressing Happenings

Depressing Happenings: part33

Gibbs stood in the door and sighed as he saw Ziva crying. He decided to let her alone. He didn't want to risk that she shut all out when he put pressure on her.

"Are you okay?", he asked and she nodded. He sat down on the dining table, so he could watch her. She sat on the couch, starred out of the window and cried. Gibbs sighed. He wanted to help her, but he didn't know how. He went down in his basement, because at the moment he couldn't do something for her. If she wanted to figure this out by herself, he would let her as long as she isn't doing something stupid. After 2hours he decided to check on her. He went up and didn't see Ziva in the living room. He checked the rooms and couldn't find her, so he want upstairs. He came into her room and saw her laying on the bed. Worrying about her he went to her and sat on the edge of the bed. He put his hand on her forehead to check if she was still feverish and she was. He sighed and Ziva opened her eyes weakly.

"Gibbs.", she mumbled tiredly.

"Ziva, are you alright?", he asked caring. She nodded and tried to sit up. Gibbs helped her as he noticed she was still a bit weak. As she sat Gibbs saw what she has done. 

"Ziva.", he said disappointed. 

"What?", she asked confused and you could hear her Israeli accent. Gibbs grabbed her arm and showed it to her. Her wrist was full of blood. She cut more than one time and it was deep. She started crying, leaned against Gibbs and he wrapped his arms around her.

"Gibbs", she sobbed in his arms.

"Ziva, that needs to stop. You can't continue like that. You promised Ducky something, remember?" She nodded in agreement. Gibbs picked her up and carried her down to the car.

"Where are we going?", she asked as they drove in the car.

"hospital.", he answered. Ziva turned her head around and looked out of the window. She knew if she would say something against Gibbs he would just get mad, so she stayed quietly.They drove the rest in silent and as they arrived Gibbs picked her up and carried her in. After 15minutes in the waiting room a doctor asked for Ziva. He checked her wrist and put a bandage around it. Then they went in Tonys room. He was asleep, so Gibbs and Ziva sat down on chairs next to his bed. After around 1hour he woke up and saw Ziva next to him. She has grabbed his hand and Tony smiled. He put his hand on her cheek.

"You alright?", he asked seeing that she was crying earlier. She nodded. Gibbs left the room, so they could be alone.

"Come here and lay down.", Tony said and Ziva laid carefully down next to him. She didn't want to hurt him, but even if she did he wouldn't care. Tony wrapped his arm around her.

"You haven't slept.", he noticed after a bit. She nodded and looked out of the window.

"Why?", he asked. She didn't respond, so he put his hands on her cheeks and turned her head around. She faced him and looked in his eyes.

"Zi, tell me." he looked in her scared eyes.

"Tony, I'm having nightmares...I, I...", she stammered and tears were in her eyes.

""Take as much time as you need, but tell me, please, I want to help you. I'm here for you, Zi. I'll protect you. At lo levad.", he told her and whispered the last 3words in her ear. After she calmed a bit down she started"Tony, I, I dream about you. I dream about how you, you r...ra..ra...rape...me.", she started crying. Tony held her head in his arm and she cried against his chest. After forever of crying Tony looked in her red and swollen eyes.

"You sleep here, sweet cheeks. I'm here. Nothing will happen. You're safe. I'll protect you...always.", Tony calmed her down. She nodded and cuddled tighter to him.

"I love you", he whispered in her ear. He kissed her forehead and stroke her hair. As she started whining while sleeping he whispered things like 'Nobody can hurt you# or 'I'm here' in her ear and she calmed down and slept peacefully. While stroking her hair he fell asleep as well.

 "Never give up hope no matter how dark things seem." One of the best quotes ever. Never lose hope. Life is hard but that's why it is called life. You can live it. You're strong enough to live it and just look forward for better days. We all have to go through some bad days to earn the best days of our lifes. Never give up hope. You will never know which great things could have happened the next day if you give up. Just move forward! -Svenja