Behind the Scenes

My Feelings Hurt

 

       One day I noticed something he posted on a social media site and I started to jump to conclusions. He is a cute guy but he very much have thotties ways that just not right . Yes I said it he is a T-H-O-T because he like other girls picture and act like he doesn't even noticed me . I was like ugggggggggh what or  you during so  I felt like crying it was morally to disrespect me .  He already put a post out there saying mf's  out there flexing like we talk . I constantly jumped to the conclusion that he was talking about me . I took to my Snapchat with the song by Jazmine Sullivan "Forever don't last" . He watched all of them 😭until I had the courage to ask him what's really up. So I came up with this unfaltering story which was slick true that he was low key mad at me . He reply what you talking about I have no reason to be mad at you. I started to get happy as hell like okkkkkk she still got him . Just tell me how does if it primarily work if you don't like someone you wouldn't care to watch their Snapchat . Well he watch my snap faithfully and return everytime I ask him something! My one and only question is " why do you guys show a huge sign of stubborn " . I just have thoughts running inside my head like why take your time to be bold ,and have      the courage to tell a guy you like him for him to make you lust after him . It's only faith and asking God what it is I even went through a phase of not knowing what's going on. My feelings was shattered thinking  this whole day he was talking about me . At less I went to sleep happy and had crazy allusion that we were together. What if are dreams are actually our life  and the world really is a allusion. It would've been so crazy because in my dreams I'm really with him . I noticeably wish that he will just tell me how he just feel it wouldn't hurt . I think boys or just jerks or the real boys are eagerly scared to fall in love .
      I  just wonder like lusting is most likely bad and the eye of God . More than likely he is coming back and better than ever . One thing he does that ticks me off is sharing people pictures by people I mean females. We grew from that and I got over it ,but I wonder about him sometimes .