i'm literally the dumbest fucking person i know and i can't do shit.
i've never achieved anything, i never got good grades, i barely had any friends throught my life and i'm a walking disappointment.
i can't stand up for myself, i'm a weak ass bitch and an anxious wrecking ball. i'm terrified of the fact that i'm growing up and i'll have to face so much more. and i'm not ready for any of it.
i just want to stay in my bed where it's warm and safe and i won't have to see anyone. because everyone is judging. everyone is growing, everyone is getting better, everyone is heading somewhere with their life. and i'm still here, dreading at the thought of getting out of bed and leaving my house.
and while i may act all chill and mighty, i'm in a constant state of horror. i want the world to stop moving and i hope i don't wake up tomorrow.
i hate myself. so everyone must hate me too.
