The Lyrics On The Desk //Jaegan

What even happened.

Recap

"I'm sorry I did this to you, it's all my fault"
He smiles
"All that matters is that we are okay, and we are"
I lean in more and brush my lips against his once more and mumble
"I love you so fuckin' much, all I want is you"

Raegan's pov

Im laying in the hospital bed with Justin, his head is on my chest and he is snoring slightly. I've tried sleeping but I just can't.
You may be wondering how I'm still here even though it's way past the visiting hours, well it's because Justin wouldn't sleep or rest without me being allowed to stay. He says I can leave if I really want to but he wants me to be here , and believe me I want to be here so bad but he needs to stay sitting and when I'm here he keeps trying to hug me or cuddle me,  I don't really mind it because I love him and I always love touching him but I don't want him to get hurt and it be my fault again. It's one of those things where you want to and you do but you feel bad about it deep down.

Slowly my eyes close and I drift off into a deep sleep.
Well deep until I'm woke up my a loud beeping noise, and a doctor shaking me, pulling my out of the bed.
I stand Up and they immediately start pushing the bed that Justin is in out of the doors and down the hall.
That is what the beeping was from...

Tears pour out of my eyes as the doctors told me to take a seat in the waiting room again.
I do and put my face in my hands and sob, soaking my sweater all over again.
He means so much to me...
What even happened?

Soon the doctor from before walked out and sat next to me in an empty chair
"What happened? I though he was doing better"
The doctor sighs
"We just found this out but someone changed the liquids in his IV so something he wasn't supposed to have, there was too much in his blood and everything stopped working, his body was just trying to get it out but it caused him to stop functioning properly.
We don't blame you, it all happened so fast and you couldn't have been able to notice anyways. Without the machine making the noise he could be dead"
I look down
"How long until he can go back into the room?"
"That's the other thing, we're planning on moving him to another hospital that also helps with suicide prevention, we looked through his records and saw that he has been in the hospital before and decided it would be best if he went back, you may go with him but you will leave tomorrow"
I nod and stand up
"I'm going to go pack some things for us then"

The doctor stands too
"Okay, but nothing sharp or anything he could potentially hurt himself with"
I fake a small smile and walk out through the doors.

OOps
Also imma be getting a new phone soon, so like I have to clear off my current one. Sorry if I don't post for Long periods of time it's just cause my phone is shitty and I need a nEw one. I also need to clean my room fully to get the money I need for the one that I want. I'm going to be getting a 7+ with 256gb of storage 😊 but I have to pay off my current phone so I'll be paying around $224 for it. Yay?
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