Smoke; Hood [au] ON HOLD

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"Lilith, why do you do this to your self?" Calum whispered, his voice full if sorrow.

He grabbed her petite hands with his larger ones, lightly rubbing her knuckles with the pad of his thumb lovingly.

"Smoking is bad, but the reason I smoke is worse." Lilith whispered back, her voice dry and hoarse.

"Please stop, you can get through this. I'll be with you through this rough journey, I'll stay by your side the entire time." Calum told her, his voice full of sincerity.

"I don't think you'll ever be able to do that." She mumbled, even though it was barely audible, he still heard.

"What do you mean by that?" Calum asked, playing with a strand of her brown hair.

"You don't care, you're just curious." Lilith replied, slowly getting off of his lap.

"Of course I care, I care about you Lil, more than you even know." Calum said, pulling her back onto his lap and holding her closer than before, hoping to hold onto her forever.

"But do you? Do you know the real me? Do you know what I've done? I'm a horrible person Calum, I'm a time bomb. I could blow up at any minute and destroy everything, including you, and I love you too much to do that." Lilith said, struggling under his strong grip on her waist.

Calum stayed silent, not knowing what to say next. Once she managed to pull free from his lap, Lilith stood up.

"Where are you going?" Calum whispered, trying not to sound desperate

"Out, for a smoke."

||a/n|| I'm so emotional from this right now tbh, I caught the feels.

I have a feeling that I'm going to make a lot of quotes in this book ahah x