You Pour My Heart Away • Declan McKenna

Chapter Ten

!!BEEP!!BEEP!!BEEP!!BEEP!!BEEP!! 07:00
Oh. It was a dream.
I slid out of bed, switched on the radio and slaved my clothes on. I did my daily makeup routine, and then slipped my shoes on. I switched Nick Grimshaw off, even though they were talking about new drama to do with Taylor Swift, who I don't particularly like but enjoyed listening to the gossip about. I opened my bedside drawer, staring down at the antidepressants I take. I sighed and shoved 2 pills down my throat. My bedside table drawer was home to many of things, snacks, spare tissues, anything, however it was also the resting place of the "pills that make you normal" - quoted from my therapist when I was 11 years old, first being prescribed.

I reluctantly plodded down the stairs, ate my breakfast and picked up my bus fare. I hugged my mother goodbye and left to walk to the bus stop for the first time. My mum had driven me to the bus stop everyday until today, apparently I needed to get used to it.
I walked along my road, shoving my earphones in and pressing shuffle.
Hearts Don't Break Around Here - Ed Sheeran
I was satisfied.
As I got to the end of my road I noticed a small boy in a bright green jacket far ahead of me Arthur. I ran to catch up with him.
"Y/N." he looked up and down my tired and panting figure.
"Why are you so out of breath?" He asked continuing to walk, a fat book in his hands.
"I ran to catch up with you!" I said between pants.
"Oh. How did you know it was me?" He sounded very confused.
"Um..." I pointed and tugged at his fluorescent green coat.
"Oh, of course!" He grinned widely forming two dimples into his tanned skin.
"Been swimming this morning Arthur?" I said looking down into his wet hair.
"Yes... how do you know?" He enquired.
"Steven said you swim in the mornings" I said.
"Oh god not Steven. He can actually bugger off!" He talked with anger and passion.
"What's wrong with Steven?" I asked.
"A long list that would be." Arthur rolled his eyes.
"Okay so you don't like Steven then." I try to clarify.
"Well I do but I don't - it's a love hate relationship I suppose" he nodded.
"Oh. Okay " I chirped.

Arthur talked to me the rest of the walk to the bus stop, complaining mostly. I said "yeah" and nodded when I needed to but I wasn't actually listening. Declan was on my mind. The dream was at the start of the thought trail and then it was the whole capital letter thing. I had thought whilst I was doing my makeup that maybe it was an anagram of something. Nope. Maybe all the letters stood for something. I Know The Interesting Might Not Tell You Brilliance? Nope.

The whole bus journey consisted of Arthur putting his earphones in and then swapping them around because he wasn't sure which way round they went. I felt bad to snigger to myself whilst witnessing this, so I redeemed myself by helping him out and showing him that they had R and L symbols on them.

"Oh. I feel like a dimwit" he said putting them in correctly.

"It's fine, it was amusing for me" I say smiling.

Heathens - Twenty One Pilots
played from when I went through a big phase of them a few years ago. I didn't think it was bad, I'd just found other music too.

The bus pulled up outside school, Arthur and I hopped off and walked into school.
"What do you have first?" Arthur asked.
"Uhh English Lit I think" I said trying to remember.
"Oh. I have physics." He said.
"Why would you take physics? It's sooooo much work and it's really hardddd" I said groaning.
"I don't really know to be honest. It can be fun though."
I gave him a questioning look and walked off with a little wave. No philosophy and ethics today, no lesson time with Declan or Gabi. My eyes rolled to the back of my head in disappointment and annoyance as I walked to class. I'd have to wait longer for the answer to the question I wanted to ask the most, about the letters and their meanings.