I went home around 1am . my face was pale,and i cant really walked because of the impact is so pain luckily my parents are asleep .i went up to my room and locked .I cried i still cant accept the fact that guanlin just raped me and my virgin lost in the age of 16 omg im scared . he totally changed . after he became an idol .he changed alot he became more hot tempered and sensitive. i hate him but i love him .
but today was the worst day.. im dirty ,no one will wants me .. I dont want to go to school. im ashame of myself .what if i pregnant .. halfway omg my parents will kill me . i hate my life so much
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the next morning
"Yah ,arent you going to school?" "Jisung knocked on my door .
"jisung maybe she locked the door,you can search the keys at the your room wardrobe because i put there incase she locks.
"ouh really thanks eomma" he ran to his room and find the keys, then he went to unlocked hyejin room,hyejin room was in a mess,full of broken glasses on the floor ,he took a broom and clean up before anything happens to her step sister .after doing that,he kept that to one side. and he heard his step sister saying
"dont hurt me . .. "
"stop hurting me " jisung sat beside her and shake her sister arm to wake up from the nightmare that she is having right now .Hyejin wake up and she frightened
"What are you doing in my room " she said and take the blanket and cover her body
"hyejin.. i guess you just had a nightmare " jisung said
"no.. it wasnt a nightmare all what i said just now is true jisung " Hyejin said and cried badly .
"what." he look confused . and hyejin started to sobbed like a baby.Jisung hugged her and calm her down
" guanlin "she started to speak
"what happen" jisung asked still hugging his sister
"he.. r.raped me yesterday" and i sobbed
"WHAT?! Yah,i'm going to tell eomma about this" jisung said breaking Hyejin from the hug.
Hyejin was fast enough to grab Jisung's wrist
"Please don't. I still love Guanlin and if you tell eomma about this she will try to break us apart and i dont want that to happen," Hyejin said sobbing.
"Aniya. I don't care if i'm not telling eomma then i will handle this myself," Jisung said furiously.
"No, don't please don't hurt Guanlin . please," Hyejin begged.
"Fine if isnt because you don't want him hurt and you still love him then i won't. But if things get worser then i have no choice" Jisung said to his sister.
" you don't need to go to school today i will just tell eomma that you're not feeling well okay and i will take a day off to look after you," Jisung said.
Hyejin thanked her brother for understanding her and how she felt right now.
"jisung.. wht if i pregnant.. and"
"i have no choice i need to tell eomma and tell him ,he needs to responsible "
" but oppa ,i dont want mum to know .im scared "
"well theres a way" Jisung said .
"but.. hais he changed to a bad tempered person . i dont know .. why i still love him eventho he keep abusing me " Jisung shocked.
"what? he abuse you?" he shocked
"yeah.. he strangle me.. he slapped me and .. he rape me ,because he was jealous that i go out with any of my guyfriend and about that paloroid daniel gave me ,it was just a short meetup before he went to debuted with wanna one and we meet up just to give his certificates and he is jelouse ." I said sadly .my tears keep falling
"omg.. i didnt know guanlin like this. i will help you okay i will slow talked to him and i will make him responsible " my Phone rang it was hyerim
"where are you? " hyerim asked me through the line
"hyerim,im not coming to school .im not feeling well .tomorrow i will come okay " I said and end the call then i saw a message from guanlin❤
"lets break up " - guanlin ❤ , 7.00 am
my tears fall.. i didnt a text from him like this
" Guanlin omg no" -sent 7.01 am
"Dont leave me "-sent 7.01 am
"i love you " -sent 7.02 am
"Guanlin ❤❤❤❤❤" -sent 7.03 am
"Im sorry i broke my promise :"( ❤❤" -sent 7.04 am
"guanlin please reply me" -sent 7.05 am
"ok i'm done with this shit" -sent 7.05 am
"LAI GUANLIN DON'T YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I SUFFERED WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE. DON'T YOU KNOW I HAD DEPRESSION WHEN YOU WERE GONE ? DON'T YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I NEEDED YOU? YES I KNOW I HAVE FRIENDS BUT THEY WERE TOO BUSY WITH OTHER STUFF. MY PARENTS ? THEY JUST HAVE NO TIME. THE ONLY PERSON I HAD WAS YOU THE TIMES I TRIED TEXTING YOU ALL YOU DID WAS SEEN MY TEXT. DON'T YOU KNOW HOW LONELY I FELT WITHOUT NO ONE KNOWING HOW I FELT IT'S JUST SO UPSETTING "-sent 7.07 am
"Fine if you want to break up with me then go ahead i cant do anything about it anymore . But please know that although you're leaving me please know that i still love you. Goodbye Lai Guanlin:) " -sent 7.09 am
Hyejin tossed her phone away from her sight . She hugged her knees and buried her face and cried.
seen -7.15 am
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nothing without you//Lai guanlin
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