Meeting The Love of my life KimSeokJin

The Stupidity

You had a lot of fun yesterday at the fan sign with Kelli AND the food you made just was to die for... maybe you ate a bit too much BUT oh well.

You smiled and looked at the ceiling as you remember the letter Jin left in your book. You were so happy that he trusted you. You just wanted to burst out and squeal, you didn't though. You just had the thought to call him just too see how he was doing... But you also didn't do that. You thought he was busy or maybe he was at a meeting or even at another fan sign. Who knew.. well, you didn't but still, you wanted to call him.

A few minutes of laying on your bed and staring at the ceiling, you finally had a decision. No, you wouldn't call him. You felt like you were intruding on his life or his own time if you did.

He was honestly the only thing you can think about right there and then.

You sat up on the edge of your bed and looked at the dazzling nature around your house. You were happy and no one can break your happiness today. You would hurt someone if they did.

You walked to the bathroom in your fuzzy bunny Pj's and took them off. You hopped in the shower and sang while water fell on you, you rubbed soap on yourself weirdly enough You couldn't stop smiling. You did though once you got out of the bathroom. 

*RINNNNNNNG RINNNNNNNNG*

"Hmm who could that be" You wondered?

You walked up to your phone and answered. "Hello?"

"YOU HAVE ONE A FREE TRIP TO -"

You hanged up.

"UGH, I hate that" You walked out of your room and went downstairs.

You plopped on the couch and turned on the TV along with your PS4 to watch Netflix. You scanned through the shows and found one that interested you. "Grey's Anatomy.. hmm sounds interesting" You had no clue why but you always loved those kinds of shows. Shows with doctors in love or maybe just the parts where they are in surgery and screw the whole thing up.

(Play The Song While Reading the rest)

You were watching the show and all of a sudden he pops into your head.

"UGH Jin you're destroying my mind right now" 

You sigh and pause the show as you then start singing HIS song "Awake"

"How I just wanna hear your voice right now." You smile "It would make me even happier"

"I love you Jin... You make me so happy... Everything you do. You're so silly... You Crack me up with your dad jokes and most of all... You never leave my mind... You made me smile even when the hardest times of my life were right in front of my eyes. Smile was all I did when I saw you pop up on my screen. Smile and giggle. It's not a fangirl type of love I don't want you to think that. I Love you in that True Love type of way... And I've always wished that one day you would feel the same..." 

You start sobbing. You knew those words would never exist when you were in front of him... you just knew that soon enough.. he would find the love of his life...someone that would make him Smile no matter what she did.. You just knew that wasn't gonna be you. You fell to your knees in sadness then got back up trying to calm yourself... You think your obsessed but your not... Your heart breaks just thinking of him being with someone else. If you had the courage to tell him how you felt about him maybe that one girl can be you... because you knew that if it were you-you would make him happy and you would never let a frown appear on his face, You would cheer him upright until he feels better then you would watch a movie and laugh together... maybe it was all in your head... but it's what you wanted.

"It's My Fate"

You look around and wipe your tears. You know he says not to cry.. but that's all you could do.

Cry Cry Cry

You were stupid to think he would ever love you. But you held your head high... Thought of the good things.

"I WILL ACCOMPLISH MY GOAL"

You said to yourself...