The Bad Boy's screams

A little bit of alcohol

He didn't need to say it. I knew. The silent whisper told me. The tears cascading down his face told me. The way he held me told me.

No they didn't tell me. No, they screamed it out. They screamed out his love for me.

I stood in a room full of teenagers, drinking a little bit of alcohol.

Horny, sweaty, high, kind, bad.

But where did I fit in to all of this?
I did fit into this. No matter what I was still a teenager.

"What's up Nate?" Joshua screams for me. I look at him.
He walks over to me.

Joshua. Azazel's 'best friend' .
I couldn't say I hated him. But I couldn't say I like him. He was calm to total opposite of Azazel.

This just made me mad. I took another gulp greedily.

"Nothing "I answered a bit slurry. I hope he got the message that I wanted to be left alone.
"Listen about Az..." He speaks but I cut him off.
"I'm sorry but I have to go and find eliot. See you later!" I scream before practically running away from there.

Then as cliche as it is I slam into somebody. Letting my beer fall to the ground. I frown looking at the spilled beer.
The person holds me from falling, a tight grip on my arms.

"Nathaniel ?" The stranger asked. I look up a gasp leaving me.
"Xavier !?" I scream hugging him.

"Nickel! How are you ?" he beams at me. That name!
"I'm fine. You?" I asked him.

"I'm good, good" he said staring down at me.
"I..." I didn't finish because I saw Azazel standing behind him.

"What's wrong ?" he asked. I shake my head.
"Let's go outside ?" I suggest. He nods and brings out of the house, into the garden.

"Dude I've missed you so much!" he screams hugging me. Again.

I'm not going to lie and say I don't like it. But...

"I want you to meet so..." he was interrupted by nobody else than Eliot.
"Jenna is looking for you, Xavier" Eliot said.

"Jenna?" I asked.
"Yes my girl" he said proudly.

I felt a pain in my heart. I wanted someone to talk about me that way. Would he be proud of me?
Will he ever?

"I wanted you to meet her. So we're having lunch at Eliot's?" he asked biting his lip.
I did want to go but I didn't want to feel single forever. But going there would make me see the whole lovey dovey shit.

"Yeah I'll be there" I smiled at him. It was a fake smile. And my best friend knows it, I could tell by the way he was looking at me.

"See you later, Eliot. " Xavier said before walking away.
I stared at him as he walks away.

"Are you drunk?" Eliot asked but it was more like accusing me.

"Not much "

"We need a plan" Eliot said.
"a plan? For what?" I asked frowning as we walk back inside.

"A plan for you to get your man. If you think he's gay and really love him, go for it. But don't embarrass yourself." he said as we try and move pass these bodies.

"He won't look at me" I said. We were both standing where the door was. I wanted to go home.

"You're not ugly, Nate" he said. I look at him, opening the door.

"You don't get it. He isn't selfish" I said walking away.

I felt alone while walking home. I hated seeing couples together. I just hates them.