Behind the Scenes

Chapter 1

" Vanessa, Van, wait up" I called out like I was gasping for air, I ran towards her but she didn't even stop to turn, I pondered on why exactly she's acting this way, she's supposed to be my best friend, now she acts like I am a shadow.
"Yes, Mee. What?" She asked and the look on her face could cause me to stutter if I didn't think fast. "Erm, er, I am sorry, you've been acting pretty weird lately, did I offend you? What's my offence? Or is it because of what I told you yesterday?" I asked, thinking of all the possible reasons why she could be this mad, I never saw this coming and so I was quite unsure on how to act. Hissing, she replied " If you know, why do you ask? Please, I don't want to talk to you, trying to sort out some things". " But, but Van, I have no clue, I've never been this confused all my life, atleast tell me where I went wrong." I pleaded. "Oh, please, keep this act to yourself, I care not. And, if you really are this curious, I know you are an intelligent girl, you'd find out soon enough, get your brain to work." She said, walking faster than usual, never slowing down her steps, like she was trying to tell me she was done with the conversation, whether or not I was. So, I watched her leave, and I could swear that was the most painful thing that I'd experienced, I watched my bestfriend leave, I was faced with thoughts of committing suicide, I was young and probably dumb, I couldn't really find answers to my many questions. The walk home seemed extremely long, maybe because I couldn't wait to cry in the comfort of my bed. " Mee, what's wrong, you're walking and sobbing?" Emmanuel asked concerned, I couldn't get myself to look at him, not to mention answering, I felt the tears run down my cheeks, I didn't know I had been crying ever since, I couldn't answer him and so I took to my heels, running as fast as I could, wishing this was all a dream.
Thankfully, when I stepped into the house, there was no one in the sitting room, that meant I did not have to endure the dreadful questions from another caring soul, I didn't want them to care, I only wanted to be alone, and more than anything, I sought love from just one person , the one person that may never give me just that, atleast, not anymore. Entering my room, and locking the door behind me, I climbed unto my bed, Sitting crossed leg and hugging my pillow like it was meant to tell me "Mee, everything is going to be fine", I let the tears trickle, I wanted to write Van a letter, an apology letter, I never saw such hatred coming from her, I wished I had another bestfriend, wished I never got attached to her, wished there was someone I could talk to, wished when my mum asks, I'd be honest enough to disclose, wished I never crossed paths with Van, wished I wasn't human. But, you see, all of that were merely wishes, that didn't change the fact that all that happened, that it all had to happen. I don't know if all will ever be well, if I will ever let healed, my aching heart demands a surgery.