Best Day Ever ~~An Ellie Goulding Fanfiction~~

CHAPTER 11: Parallel Thoughts Part II

ELLIE'S POV

I choke back sob after sob. 

“I’m so sorry. Baby…pet, I’m just trying to…”

Kat stands up abruptly in front of me, snowboard still attached. The sun is shining too bright, and I can’t read her expression. But her tone sends another wave of tears rushing through me.

“You’re…you’re breaking up with me?”

I try to explain. About Johnny. About how I’m scared for her life, and how I won’t be around to protect her. About how I don’t want to leave her alone and in danger, and how I’m sure he’ll know we broke up since he’s been stalking us. About how maybe this will give us just the tiniest chance for peace with him. But Kat doesn’t know any of this. And nothing comes out.

I feel her stare burning into me. Then she vanishes down the mountain.

KAT'S POV

It’s a beautiful day, and I’m at my favorite place in the world. But now I wish I could be anywhere else. I guess nothing stays perfect forever.

I wipe a tear from my cheek as I race down the mountain at top speed and a song lyric comes to me.

Sometimes it’s worse to have lost than to have never had at all 

Cause it’s a curse to feel loved then to feel it all dissolved 

I wish that was true. I wish that I wished I had never met her. But that’s not true. She’s the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me, and the weight of that thought infuriates me even more. I move even faster down the mountain.

Where you once were, there is a space that runs as deep as hell 

But every morning when I wake I tell myself

I duck into the trees, and narrowly miss a giant redwood when I go flying off a mogul.

Don’t be fooled by your emptiness 

There’s so much room for happiness

I can’t continue anymore. I skid to my heelside and collapse, unable to keep my feelings in any longer. I slam my fists into the ground before me, and I suddenly hate how soft the powder is because I miss the satisfaction of hitting something.

I’ve lost her. I’ve fucking lost her.

I don’t know how long I stay there. But I cry until I physically can't continue any longer.

ELLIE'S POV

I’ve managed my way back to the cabin, but I’ve no idea how long it took. The clock in the kitchen reads 7:00pm. Where is she? What is she doing? Then a more selfish thought flashes through my head, and I try to shake it off but fail. Is she thinking about me? 

I force myself to swallow these thoughts, and I move over to the pantry to make myself a cuppa as I wait for her to return.

  

KAT'S POV

“You know what, fuck her!” I cheer out to a pub full of mountain men, as I hold my shot of whiskey up in the air and clink glasses with a few strangers who slap me on the back.

That last shot really got to me, so I move away from the bar and head toward the pool table in the back room. I’m aggravated when I see that some girl is already playing there.

 “Ya mind?” I say roughly, as the alcohol destroys the last remnants of tact that reside in my brain.

She grins widely at me, and I notice that she’s very tall. And pretty. She reminds me of Ellie instantly.

“Not at all.” She says, and backs away from the table, signaling that it’s OK for me to play.

I grunt and move to grab a pool stick from the rack behind her, but the girl catches me by the wrist. 

“Jeez, so eager.” She purrs seductively, moving her hand from my wrist up to my forearm. “My names Micaela, hun. What’s yours?” she keeps stroking my arm and it makes me uncomfortable but I’m not sure why. It’s not like I have a girlfriend anymore. 

A waitress interrupts us; saying that some guy at the bar bought me a drink, and I snatch the beer from her hands, not thinking twice as I pop the cap off on a nearby counter and down half the beer in one swig.

I give her a nod in thanks and turn my attention back to the girl stroking my arm.

“My name is Kat.”

“Well, Kat. My place is just down the road.” Her hand moves further up my arm until it rests on my neck. “You want to get out of here?” 

I gulp down the rest of the beer, desperately wanting to feel numb, and to quiet the constant memories of Ellie that have been tormenting my mind all day.

I nod to the girl.

Fuck it.

She smiles and takes my hand, guiding me out of the pub and into the parking lot.

ELLIE'S POV

I hear the squeak of the front door and I jerk myself awake. Instantly I see that it’s dark outside, and a light turns on in the kitchen and I see Kat standing near the kitchen counter, still dressed in her snow clothes. Another glance toward the clock confirms that she’s been out all night, and my heart races instinctively.

“Love!” I grab a blanket from the sofa and rush to her, wrapping the fabric around her shoulders, and my hand accidentally brushes against her neck and she recoils from my touch. My heart instantly drops at her reaction.

“Love,” I continue gently, sensing that something more is wrong with her, besides the obvious. “Where have you been tonight?”

She let’s out a noise that’s somewhere between a snort and a burp, and trips and catches herself on the countertop - now leaning against it for what seems like support.

Then I notice the smell… alcohol. Blimey, a lot of it. But, also…

“Perfume?” I’m embarrassed when my voice cracks midway through my question, but I have no control over the words.

Her eyes lock on to mine, for the first time since before I ended things with her, and they’re dark. Darker than I have ever seen them before, like a storm is literally raging inside her and it’s fogged up the insides of her pupils.

“To the pub…” Her words are slurred and she hiccups, “Met a girl,” She brashly emphasizes ‘girl’, as she moves herself away from the counter and falls down onto the couch. “Met a girl who liked me - actually liked me, and…” 

She’s completely pissed, but every word hurts me so much I can’t bear to hear it any longer, and tears quickly well up inside my eyes.

“Did you…” My voice is trembling so bad I can barely speak the words, “Did you sleep with her?”

She turns toward me and for a moment she looks coherent. Sad, troubled, exhausted, and angry; but coherent.

She looks at me so intently I feel like she’s going to break me in two. Then I hear her sigh, and she tips over to her side and falls asleep instantly.

A/N: Sorry guys, I had to do it! :p Let me know what you all think!

-Shade4dayz