This Is Me After You

THE WIFE

//KATHRYN//

Love naalala mo ba nung mga panahon na sinabi mo sakin
That I am perfect ?
That you love me?
That I will be your one and only ?
Na I am the Love of your life ..

But that was before

And now
I don't what it feels like to be told you are perfect in every way and will always be taken care of?
Kung paano mahalin
Cause all I can feel is pain
Pain which is silently killing me .

So Let me convey the emotions that rip through a young woman like myself when she is convinced she is someone's forever.

That I am your Forever

Let me express the hope and loyalty that is instilled inside of a girl who built up wall after wall only to feel as though they were peacefully torn down by a man who pulled her deeply into his love.
Hindi ko kayang i-explain ang lahat ng emosyon na nararamdaman ko ngayun ang hirap ilipat sa mga salita kung ano ang pakiramdam kung paano mo dinurog ang puso ko at winasak ito ng ilang piraso at ngayun hindi ko alam kung paano ko sisimulang buuin

O kaya ko nga ba ??

Gusto kong sabihin sayo
that I loved you.

I loved you through every emotional part of the roller coaster you have brought into my life.

I loved you on the days that you were pleasant and kind and also the days you were unrecognizable to me.

I loved you through changing circumstance and the rapid movement of time.

I even loved you when you decided that you didn't love me anymore.

Pero sa tingin ko may parte padin sa katauhan ko na nananatiling mahal ka na kahit magmukmok pa ako dito sa bahay kung saan natin binuo ang pangako natin para sa isa't isa..

Dahil
Meron ka paring iniwan sa akin
Na dahilan kung bakit hinding hindi kita makakalimutan

Yes
My face is hot with tears and disillusionment.
Hindi ko kaya ..
hindi ko mapigilang magluksa kasi winasak mo ako .. winasak mo lahat lahat .
Pero kahit na ganun ..
I want you to know most is that I still love myself, and I still know what love really is.

You have shattered my heart, but you have not shattered my love.
You have broken my heart, but you have not broken my love. I know you have it too, deep inside of you, and my love allows me to genuinely hope na maiintindihan mo din yun .

Wala namang isang simpleng salita para sa isang simpleng pagkawasak ng puso diba ? Hindi mo naman masasabing maging okay ka kasi yun ang nararapat .. na kalimutan ka agad agad kasi yun ang tama . Dahil kahit anong gawin ko hindi na maibabalik lahat lahat ng nawala .

But I will probably allow a few more tears to fall down tonight in your honor.
I will most likely shed more while listening to a song we used to sing or see something I know would make you smile.

Dahil you are my love
You are my Bali
You are my husband
The one and only person na pinangarap ko at akala ko makakasama ko habang buhay .

Pero kakayanin ko
kahit mahirap

Kakayanin ko

Kahit pinapatay na ako ng kalungkutan .
Kahit patuloy na nadudurog ang puso kakaisip na sana ...
Sana pwede pa tayo .
Sana balikan mo uli ako .
Na sana bumalik yung dating tayo .

Pero wag kang mag alala ..

I will be Okay.

I will be OK because the love inside of me is strong and true.

I will be OK because no matter how many people trample on my heart, they will never take my love.

No one can

not even you

And now ...

This is Me After You