Specks of Light

Part Seven. Chapter 7: Rush

A panicking sensation started to invade Yuu’s body as he slowly felt unallowed kisses landing on his skin. He tried to move away without any success, Fujino held him tight by the shoulders forbidding any movement he may attempt. “No!” he cried out almost in despair. Fujino lifted his head giving Yuu a bit of relief. “I really don’t want to force you, Yuu- san” he said without getting his body off Yuu’s who still laid defenseless on the carpet “So please, allow me! So that neither of us have to use force” he continued setting a hand at the hem of Yuu’s pants. “You know damn well, I’m, in a relationship” Yuu said abruptly moving his leg to shake off Fujino’s hand “I really don’t want to do this with you” he protested feeling Aki’s hand now slowly sliding to his inner thigh.

“Yuu- san, I know you feel the same towards me...even if it’s just a tiny bit” Fujino said almost in a whisper “Otherwise you wouldn’t have called me today when he hurt you” he went on, once again burying his head on Yuu’s neck. Yuu struggled in vain against the author, he didn’t have enough physical strength to actually push the guy away. Fujino’s hands started to travel down his arms as his lips slowly moved from Yuu's neck towards his cheeks. Yuu's body became more and more tired by the second, soon he would not be be able to struggle anymore. As he felt a tiny tear forming in his right eye, a memory started to flash through his eyes. Over a year ago, he had been the one on top of someone who didn't want to sleep with him and he had tried to convince the guy to do it in order to prove that he was better than his actual boyfriend. 'What goes around comes around' he thought as he closed his eyes ready to give up hoping for Fujino to at least be gentle. Maybe he deserved this, hadn’t he almost forced Chiaki as well? Hadn't he tried to abuse his friend to fill his unrequited love?

It was relief that he hadn't been succeeded that time, 'That’s it! Chiaki!!' Back when Yuu had tried to get Chiaki to sleep with him, the innocent and very scared mangaka had punched him in the face in order to get him to stop. He could maybe replicate the action, but he didn’t really know how to throw a fist. He looked around and found a small alarm clock clearly not working to his left side, with great effort he slid his hand to the side trying to reach for the object. The motion of his arm and head exposed more skin for Fujino to land his lips on. Clearly the author had confused the move for acceptation, cause a second after Yuu moved, Fujino’s hand forced his head back to face him and landed a kiss on his lips. Yuu frowned at the gesture keeping his lips as shut as humanly possible. He slid his hand a bit further finally reaching for the alarm clock. Without thinking twice, he moved the object to hit Aki in the cheek, however, because of their proximity, the metal clock also injured his forehead. He saw Fujino placing his hand over the place Yuu had hit and instantly retrieve from his actions.

Yuu felt his forehead being sore, but the adrenaline rush in his body was more powerful than the pain. He stood up, almost running to the apartment door when his arm was retained in a tight grip. “I’m sorry, Yuu- san. Please don’t leave” Aki begged with his head looking down and his left hand still pressed against his cheek. “No! Let go! let go now!” Yuu ordered almost shouting at the author. “Its not fair, Yuu- san!! I was there first, wasn’t I?” Fujino spoke with an angry tone Yuu had never heard from him. Fujino- sensei was normally extremely composed in full control of his emotions, so seeing him in the verge of an emotional breakdown was new and really disturbing for Yuu. “If you had started working with me first...if I had talked to you sooner instead of hiding fearing rejection...you’d be with me now!” the sobbing mangaka said, frustration tangible in his voice. As much as Yuu wanted to flee, he thought it was the time to set things straight and finally end the topic here. “No, you are wrong, Fujino- sensei" he started with a steady tone “I wouldn’t be dating you!” he continued feeling his chest and his stomach burning.

Fujino slowly lifted his head finally dropping his hand from his face allowing Yuu to see the big scar he had caused in the author’s perfect features. “Even if you had confessed first, and had I accepted...the very moment Ijuuin- sensei would’ve started to court me, I would have left you for him” Yuu said coldly  looking straight at Fujino’s eyes. He was not moved when he saw those blue eyes starting to fill with tears. “D- don’t lie!!...your sense of loyalty is one of the things I like the most from you” Aki spoke in a low tone full of sorrow Yuu thought he would never hear from him. “I’m loyal because it’s Ijuuin- sensei that I’m dating...even before we started going out, I was deeply attracted to him! That’s why I didn’t put any sort of resistance when he took me to bed...which you know from that purple bruise in your face, is not the case with you” Yuu said surprised of how steady and serious he had sounded. He retrieved his arm from Fujino’s grip and quickly grabbed his jacket and bag. He scaped the place with no more words to say leaving the sobbing author to deal with his pain by himself.

It was when Yuu heard the closing door of Fujino’s apartment that he truly realized just what had just happened. He rushed towards the elevator feeling his heart exploding from how fast it was beating, he needed to leave the building right away. He pressed the button of the elevator five times until the doors finally opened. He entered and pressed for the lobby feeling like the machine wasn’t going fast enough. Hearing the bell of the elevator, he exited almost running towards the sidewalk. He didn’t even know exactly where he was heading, but he did know, he needed to move fast. His feet seemed to he moving at their own will as he run through the park full of people. He turned to look back fearing that he was being followed as his feet instinctively started to move even faster...suddenly his tracks were stopped by him crashing into someone, Yuu didn’t even have the time to react before he was suddenly engaged in a tight embrace.