It hurts.
Of course, it does.
One day you feel like having the 'best days' of your life.
Then suddenly.,
Biglang BOOM!! ALL GONE....
Sabi nga nila.. kapag sobrang saya mo., may kapalit yan...
And for me.,
I already have it...
Break-up.
Salitang wala lang sakin noon. Pero ngayon., kung bibigyan ko ng meaning... ang sakit lang!!!
Yung feeling mo na akala mo...
ok kayo.,
masaya kayo.,
you have it all.
Pero lahat ng yun 'akala mo lang pala' kasi at the end nahulog ka.. and he didn't dare catch you.
'Why did you fall., ate?'
Ow? Nandito pala ako sa park. Kasama ko ang 5 yrs. old na pamangkin ko. And yes., sinabi ko sa kanya na 'I fell in love.'
'Well., I just fall...'
'Ouch!! Did it hurt? I know it does... I experienced it also.'
Wow, ha.. hiya naman ako sa Inlgesera kong pamangkin.
'Really? How does it feel?..
'Look..oh...' sabay turo sa tuhod niyang may peklat na...
'Ow...that's it?.' Nakisakay na lang ako sa bata. Na-experienced na nga niya ang mahulog. Masakit din.
Kung sana ganyan lang ang makukuha ko sa pagka-fall ko 'peklat lang'.
But., yes maybe I also have that... tagos sa puso eh. Kung titingnan ko ang puso ko ngayon *literally* andami sigurong sugat nito that will turn into 'peklat soon'.
'Bakit ka nga nahulog ate.' Tinagalog ako? Seryoso na tong batang to. Ang cute pa naman niyang tingnan sa swing.
Pero kailangan ko siyang sagutin...
Paano ba ako sasagot...?
'Ahmm... nangyari lang... hindi ko napigilan eh...'
She looked serious now...
'But., you can prevent it ate... be careful..'
Seriously? Am I really talking to a 5 year old child or not?
'How.. baby?'
'Well., ate malaki ka na. You have to know the signs.!' Sabi na habang talagang seryosong nakatingin sakin.
Now I'm not talking to a 5 year old...
Signs? What was that? Kailangan ko itanong.
'Anong signs.?'
'Those street signs..over there... I know you know how to read ate... like that dahon it's green means Go, your shirt it's red means Stop, and that umbrella it's yellow means careful. You know?'
That was an explanation I didn't expect.
'Ah..yes baby., I will take note on that.'
She smiled.
'And ate., if you fall., you don't need to worry.'
Huh?
'Bakit..?'
'Because, you can still stand up again. And look., it may hurt at first but then it will still heal and felt like it never happened. All that was left was peklat'
Sinabi niya yun habang pinapakita ang peklat niya sa tuhod.
So, now that was something.
>'falling' and 'standing' back again...
Even though I know it hurts I should accept it, get back and moved on.
Let this fresh wounds be just a scar one day.
