The Heathen (BWWM)/ Interracial/ Swirllove

Chapter 13.

3 months later***

Alexxia's P.O.V

It's been months since I've seen Shane. After that time we had sex I just felt like going home and shutting everyone out. I felt spiritually broken. I felt like I went against my religion and my mother rules. It made me feel so bad. I know when you love someone nothing should really matter but for some reason I couldn't ignore this sickening feeling I had. I've been going back to church lately and devoting myself to God more often and that was my focus since I haven't registered to any colleges. At 19 I felt like staying at home and taking a break from school.

"Would you like to hear the heartbeat?" I sighed and nodded.

I was at the doctors getting my baby scan. Yes I'm pregnant and it's been about three months now. I was with my mom and I felt so bad that Shane wasn't here with me to see this but I just couldn't tell him. My mom told me that I'm going to have to let him know sooner or later but I should take my time if I have to. I looked down at my phone and I saw a text message from Shane.

✅Shane:

Hey...
I know you're not talking to me for whatever reason but I wanna see you. It doesn't have to be romantic or whatever but at least give me some closure Lexxie! You left me fucking hanging for 3 fucking months! What am I supposed to do! Come on Lex. I need to see you.
Please...

I stared at my phone and started crying. I wanted to see him again and be with him. I wanted to talk again and tell him about his baby but I was so afraid.

Alexxia's mom: "It's okay baby. It will all work out. You'll see." She held my hand to assure me.

I locked my phone and ignored him again. I just wasn't ready to face him. I felt like he would be angry at me and leave for good.

Later that day***

Starr: "Look at you laying on the couch doing nothing with your life. I warned you about that boy. Now you're pregnant with a bastard baby. So much for the innocent Jesus follower... You failed your God for a stupid piece of shit." She walked passed.

"It's not a bastard baby! My baby has a dad so don't be a dick! It's not like your child has a father Starr!" I spat.

Starr:" Don't you dare talk about my child like that... You can fuck off with your abominable child with a shit-faced boyfriend. She walked off. "let me find that bitch and I'll fuck him up so bad!" She sounded so raged up.

I just got up and went to my room because I didn't want to face her anymore. I wanted some peace for once and not being reminded about the mistakes I've made. I walked past the mirror and noticed how my belly started to show more. It was small but visible since I was a slim person. It could easily be seen. I brushed around my tummy and stared in the mirror.

"I love you Shane." I whispered.

Shane's P.O.V

I sent Lexxie a message earlier this morning in hopes that she would reply but she still hasn't. I just wanted to see her and talk. I know it's because we had sex the other time but I told her to tell me if she felt uncomfortable with the whole thing. I'm so concerned about her but she doesn't seem to know that since she shut me out for months.

I got up from my desk at my office and grabbed my car keys ready to head home because it was a bit slow at the office today. I decided to go home early. I drove for about 20 minutes and pulled into the my driveway. As I stepped out of the car I felt myself being shoved back into the car sit. It was Lexxie's sister. She looked so angry and ready to fight.

Starr: "Shane you piece of shit! I knew you were nothing but a waste man! You white motherfucker!" She shouted and pointed at me.

"What the fuck are you on about!?" I tried getting out my car but she pushed me back onto my sit.

Starr:" You left my little sister with your burdens! Now she's fucking pregnant with your bastard fucking baby! How do you think the church will look at her now! Knowing that she's not only pregnant but pregnant with a jackasses  white man's coward baby!!!" She stopped herself and looked sternly at my face.

I was shocked. I just sat in my car and looked up at her with no words to say for once. I ran my hands through my hair and looked down.

" I didn't know... She didn't tell me anything. She just shut me out." I said weakly.

Starr:" No shit Sherlock! I wouldn't tell you either! You're a waste of time I should beat your ass right now but you know what I'm not. I'll just leave you with a warning! You better stay the fuck away from my baby sister! She doesn't love you anymore!" She fixed her hair up and walked backwards while still looking at me.

"That's not true! I know Lexxie.. She wouldn......" She cut me off.

Starr:" Oh Shut the fuck up. She has been busy with Jonathan. He seems like a better guy for her anyway. He would raise this baby better than you would! So fuck off and stay lost!" She walked off and disappeared with the shadows created by the trees.

I got out my car and went into the house still shook as ever. I plummeted onto my bed and felt so angry for not trying enough to see Lexxie. I reached in my pocket and took my phone out to call her. Her phone ringed for awhile and went straight to voicemail. I threw my phone against the wall and formed my hands into fists. I wanted to scream and punch things but I held myself back. I've had anger problems for as long as I can remember but this time I wanted to cry more that I wanted to punch into the wall. I stood up and tried to breathe but it wasn't helping so I punched the same wall I threw my phone against several times until blood was flowing down the wall. I looked at my fist and dropped to my knees. I felt a burning sensation on my knuckles and I couldn't move my hand much.

"Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuccccccck!" I shouted. "Fuck it all!" I cried on the floor until I passed out.