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Holland's POV
I guess that's it. My parents are dead...
If it wasn't for Collin, I would've killed myself already. I've been tossing and turning all night. Not once have I called Collin for help. At this point, I need more than help. Everything just happened so fast, but I have to keep going for my parents. They would be disappointed to even hear me talk like this. I decided not to have a funeral. Why? I don't want to get special treatment from anyone. So far the only guys that know are Collin, and Kevin. I'm deciding to keep it that way. I looked at the clock and it was 2am. Great. My phone began vibrating. When I picked it up, I saw I had a message from Kelsey.
Kelsey: Why didn't you come to school today?
I sighed and put my phone back down on the night table. I stood up from bed and went downstairs to the kitchen. I saw Collin asleep in the couch.
"Babe" I whispered as I shook his shoulder
"Mmm" he murmured as he began opening his eyes.
"Hey beautiful" he smiled as he stretched.
"Hey baby" I smiled.
"Feeling better?" He asked as he stood up from the couch.
"Yeah" I really did feel better.
"That's great" he yawned.
I giggled "sleep in my room"
"You don't have to tell me twice. This couch is so uncomfortable" he scratched his belly and started going up the stairs to my room. I laughed.
"Are you coming?" He asked.
"Yeah. In a bit babe" he nodded and entered my room. I went up the stairs and went to my parents bedroom. Tears came out as soon as I entered. I locked the door, I just wanted to be alone.
"I wish you guys weren't dead..." I sat on their bed and hugged their pillows. I let out all the tears I had inside.
"Why did you have to die!" I shouted. I threw everything on the floor.
"I want to fucking die!" I shouted even louder. I started banging on the walls.
"Holland?!" I heard Collin shout from my room. I ignored it and kept on throwing everything.
"Holland!" Collin shouted as he tried to open the door.
"Leave me alone!" I shouted.
"You're going crazy! Stop!" He started banging on the door.
"I just want my parents back...." I laid my back against the wall and started sliding down until I was on the floor.
"Holland...." I put my legs up to my chest.
"Open the door" I stretched out my hand and unlocked the door. Collin stood their watching the mess I made. He looked down on me and kneeled on the ground.
"It's going to be okay" he whispered.
"No" I mouthed as I cried.
He hugged me tight. I just stayed there. I didn't have any force to do anything but cry.
"Let's go to your room" he got up and offered a hand. I grabbed his hand to get up. He led me to my room and sat me down on the bed.
"Do you want some pills?" Collin asked as he went to the other side of the bed.
