What have we done?

Ch. 8. Christian

I sit on my bedroom floor with a bottle of vodka I had taken from my dad just thinking about Chase. She went back to Connor... after everything he put her through. Dammit, I love her. Why can't she see that? I try to make it obvious. "Connor, can you turn your music down?" My mom yells. I do as Im asked and the sound of Escape the Fate's song Harder Than You Know fades just slightly. "Thanks honey. You should go outside, its nice." She looks at me with a weak smile. I know she doesnt approve of me drinking. "I miss her mom." I say with tears pricking my eyes. " She comes and sits next to me and places her arm around my shoulder. "I know baby and Im sorry. It'll get better. I promise." She kisses my forehead and stands to leave. "Hey mom?" She turns around. "Thanks." I say with a small smile.

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Chase is now 5 months pregnant and we're out baby shopping for Ana. "Chris! Look at this one! Its soooooo cute!" I laugh. "If you want it, get it Chase. I dont mind paying for it as long as it makes you happy!" She wraps her arms around my neck. "Thank you so much!" She kisses my cheek and places the outfit in the cart. Connor and I shop with her at different times. She gets stressed out when we fight. "Babe, can we go look at cribs?" She asks me with her eyes wide. "Sure." I smile and she takes my hand.

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"Hey bro." Connor says when Chase and I walk into his house with the bags from shopping. "Hey." I say struggling, carrying the box with a pink cherry wood crib in it. "Hey babygirl." Connor says and kisses Chase's head. "Hi Connor!" She smiles brightly. Chase is so short and tiny it's adorable. Her bright blue eyes and black and blue hair.. all together she's perfection. I hope that baby is mine. I have natural black hair and honey brown eyes. Connor hair blonde and light almost lime green eyes. We should know who the baby belongs to once we see her.

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"Chrisssssssssss!" Chase yells from the living room. "Yes baby?" I say walking downstairs. She reaches her arms out, "Come cuddle with me." She smiles and I fall for those big blue eyes. I sit next to her and she climbs up in my lap and lays her head on my chest. This whole time, she has been with me and Connor and he still doesnt know that. She spends days with me while Connor is at school and nights with him. "I love you Christian." She says and closes her eyes. "I love you too baby." I smile and do the same.