What have we done?

Ch. 15. Connor

No fuckin way. My little girl... isnt mine. None of them are. I just... I cant... I get up off the ground after Cellin hugged me and walked out. I got in my car and drove off. I didnt know where I was going and honestly I didnt care. I just needed to be away from there... away from them. Christian was so happy, Eric too. I should be, Carter is mine. I should be ecstatic. But I'm just not, I don't feel anything.

I pull into a field in the middle of nowhere and get out of the car. The snow nips at my nose as I get in the trunk and grab my guitar. I sit in the snow, despite how cold it is, abd begin to play. I start to sing...

Caity don't cry...

and I begin to tear up. Singing about the little girl I waited nine months for, and she's not even mine.

I can live without you but without you.. I'd be miserable at best..

A full on sob begins. I hear tires and then a car turn off. I turn around to see Chase. "Cha-" I don't even finish before she gets on her knees and pulls me into a hug. She's crying, worse than I am. I wrap my arms around her. "Connor, I'm so sorry. I love you, I love everything about you. I need you and Analynn needs you. I'm just.. I'm so sorry." I pull away and kiss her slightly on the lips. "I love you too Chase but Christian has something with you that I could never have. Christian is Ana's dad.. she needs him so much more than she will ever need me. You guys need to be a family and hey, maybe Ana and Carter can have a better love story than we do... " I trailed off. She wipes her tears and I wipe mine.

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I get home and there is a note. It's from Cellin.

Dear Connor,

      I love you so much. I'm so sorry Cailiyne isn't yours. I know you wanted it so bad. I did too. I wanted more than anything for her to be yours... ours. Just please, don't give up on me... remember that Cailiyne is a baby of rape and Carter is a baby of love. Eric has offered to sign the adoption papers. She can be yours as long as you believe she is. Blood doesn't matter darling.

love, Cellin <3

I can't believe it, Cailiyne will be mine!