The shoe girl (an Eminem fan fiction)

You can't change someone's roots

Maddison's POV

The past few weeks have been great!

My relationship with Marshall is doing awesome, we are growing closer and closer, we got to really know each other, not just the superficial side.

I've been attending all my classes, which are much easier now that I can only focus on studying.

No more worrying about paying rent, paying the bills for Anastasia and just no more students loans!

Dean was so fucking happy studying at Harvard, Anastasia was doing great, the doctors think there is a huge chance she might make a full recovery!

I'm just on cloud nine, no more self-harming, not more drinking and no more claustrophobia.

But sadly, my month will be over in a couple of hours.

I think we both know it, but none of us wants to actually talk about it or simply think about it. Yet we can't avoid it forever.

So I decided to do what I would always do when things get to hard. Run.

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I open the front door quickly, closing it behind me. As the tears roll down my cheeks I run up to our room.

I mean his room.

I take my luggage and throw it on the bed, trying my hardest to not cry anymore. I yank my clothes from the hangers, throw them in my luggage, trying to ignore the pain.

My heart is actually breaking. Who would have thought?

I open a drawer and my underwear is there. My Marvel underwear. I let out a frustrated scream and throw it on the bed, harshly passing my hands through my hair.

I look at my phone and realize I have an hour until Marshall gets here.

I let my back slide down the wall, falling on the floor, not able to stop the tears from falling.

Everything is falling.

I take a deep breath and get up, finishing packing. I don't let a single item behind, not wanting him to remind me I was ever staying in his house.

Everything packed, as well as my heart, I slowly make my way to the front door.

Without looking back I start walking towards the subway. The tears silently roll down and I let them, not caring who sees me.

I take my train to my new shit hole of apartment I found. I cry the whole ride there, getting pitiful looks from the other passengers.

When I finally get there I lose it. I throw my luggage at the wall, not caring who hears or who I bother.

My phone start ringing and sure enough it's Marshall.

I cry even harder when I see the goofy picture that appears on my phone every time he calls me. I put the phone shakily down and just crawl to a corner, crying like I've never cried before.

I shake and sob, at one point my throat hurting so much I simply couldn't make a sound, just shake.

My phone kept ringing over and over, for the whole night I just stared at it from my corner, crying harder every time it rang again.

When it was about 2 in the morning I got up, walked out of the apartment and up to the nearest liquor store.

Bought myself some cheap alcohol and walked back up to my apartment, drinking my pain down.

Once I was drunk enough I waited for the next call to come. I answered the call.

"Maddie! Where are you?! Are you okay?!" Marshall demands hysteric.

"I'm fine. I kept my end of the deal. One month Marshall" as the words left my mouth so did the tears.

"No please! Come back! Tell me where you are, I'll pick you up. We can be happy together, I can make you happy, you know I can" he declares, his voice shaky.

"No. You deserve so much better. I can never thank you enough for what you did. It was nice meeting you" I reply.

"You are more than I deserve! You are wonderful, you are the best thing that's ever happened to me. I'm in love with you Maddison! I'm in love with your clumsiness, I'm in love with your beautiful smile, I'm in love with your obsession with converse, I'm in love with your determination, I'm in love with your voice, your angelic voice, I'm in love with every single one of your scars, I'm in love of the way you speak about something you're passionate about, I'm in love of the way you love, I'm in love of the way you are so generous and would go out of your way to help someone, I'm in love with every single one of your curves, I'm in love with you Marvel bra, I'm in love with your cursing, I'm in love with your stubbornness, I'm in love with your will to work for everything in life, I'm in love with how humble you are, I'm in love with your intelligence, I'm in love with your sarcasm, I'm in love with your messy hair in the morning, I'm in love with the way you talk when you're asleep, I'm in love with the way you care about me, I'm in love with your kisses, your hugs, your bandages, I'm in love with your touch, your smell, your way of walking, I'm in love with the way your scrunch your nose when you're mad, I'm in love with the way your ears turn read when you're embarrassed but not your cheeks. I'm in love with every single part of you. I'm in love with you Maddison" he finishes in a whisper.

I blink a couple of times, trying to take it all it. Never, ever, has someone said something this beautiful to me.

"Marshall" I whisper "You deserve so much better. You deserve a girl with class, a girl that has seen the world, a girl from your world. As much as this past weeks have been amazing I can't just put aside the fact that wherever you take me, I simply don't fit in. I'm an outcast in your world"

"You are not! You are the most perfect girl I've ever met! You are the girl that can adapt, the girl I'll help to adapt!" he shouts.

"I can't adapt. I'm not perfect. I am, and always will be, the shoe girl" I state.

As a single tear rolls down my cheek I hang up.

HEY GUYS!

Sorry it's so short but I just wanted to update, to not bail so much on you guys!

Plus you are so awesome you deserved the update!

So do you like it? I cried a little, I have to admit but it's the story.

DO NOT WORRY! IT'S FAR FROM OVER!

I had a little writter's block but I'm back on track!

Do no expect an update so soon, I have a shit tone of finals next week and I'm stressing out, but I'll promise to try and update as soon as that is over!

BY THE WAY! THANK YOU FOR OVER 10 000 READS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU GUYS ROCK!!!!

Alright, take care of yourselves and I wish you the best!