May 16, 2014
Dear Diary,
My childhood was a happy one. I was blessed with a good family. Everyone was envying me because of my family's good condition. My father had a good job and my mother was a good housekeeper. In short an ideal family. I'm only child and i could get what i wanted. I was a spoiled brat but only to my dad because my mom was the disciplinarian. One time when i was 3 or 4 years old my mom disciplined me with a hit and my dad said, " what are you doing to your child?" He got me into his arms while i was crying. You know i love them both. I know my mom wanted me to grow up a good person and the same with my dad. I remember my mom told me that my dad said, "when i am gone my daughter will suffer a lot." And i think that really happened to me. I think my dad sensed it. My dad died when i was turning six. And it was also the beginning of my nightmares that even now still bothering me at night.
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My heart is throbbing like it will come out of my chess. I can here his voice outside of our house talking to someone. His voice alone in my ears can make me nervous to the highest level. I don't know what to do. I run upstairs as fast as I can. I run to my room and lock the door immediately just like ten horses are after me. I look around my room afraid and catching my breath and I saw a red foam for a single bed rolled up behind the clothes bar that is full of hanging clothes. I run there and hide myself perspiring.
"Jhaimey, Jhaimey open the door. It's time to eat," mom calls me while knocking on the door. I open my eyes and rub my eyes with my hands. I fell asleep behind the clothes bar. I slowly stand up and walk to the door to open it. "Sorry mommy I fell asleep," I said. "It's okay baby come on down now," said mom in a caring voice. She holds my hand and we go down to the dining area. I sit beside my mom on the table she gives me rice on my plate while asking me "how's your day in school?" "Fine," I shortly answer. I forgot about the reason why I got asleep. We eat silently with very scarce conversation.
