Time Is All We Need

Chapter 6

Alison told herself that today was the day that she would tell Emily she was going to end up at a hospital in Wisconsin at the beginning of summer. She had been putting it off for the past week, but she's been feeling more guilt pile up with each passing day. Emily herself, was contributing to Alison's guilt. She had taken her out to cute and romantic dates, or requested that they at least got to see each other, every day. Well, every day except for Tuesday. Emily didn't want to ruin Alison and Spencer's special Tuesday gossip together.

Emily made her feel special. A kind of special no one has ever managed to make her feel, besides her own parents. How was she supposed to leave the brunette? How was she supposed to break the girl's heart, let alone break her own?

Alison had just finished a surgery. Her attending let her take the lead, being able to start the procedure and finish it herself. It was a simple surgery, one Alison had seen performed countless times, and she had scrubbed in on before. A simple Splenectomy. Spencer was waiting for her at the nurses station so they could eat lunch together like they always had.

"Look who's here." Spencer pointed to the middle of the lunch area when the pair first entered. Emily sat at a table by herself in her uniform, close to the television. She was watching it and sipping on a water, while she picked at a muffin. There was a white bag standing in the middle of the table. "Go." Spencer whispered and pushed the back of the blonde towards the girl.

"Hey, I didn't know you were coming."

"Oh," Emily turned to face Alison, smiling at her and motioning to sit down "I wanted to surprise you." She pushed the white bag towards Alison along with the coffee she had for the blonde. "You look so beautiful."

"I just got out of surgery; I look gross. Thank you for the food though." Alison smiled, and took a sip of the warm gift from Emily. She peered inside the bag, pulling out a blueberry muffin for herself, and a sandwich from her favorite place, Tony's. She ate her muffin first, as they talked about her surgery, and Emily's day so far. "Do you want some?" Alison motioned to the sandwich she started to unwrap.

Emily declined, making Alison shrug until she came to a complete stop when she read what was written on the wrapping. 'Will you be my girlfriend?' She looked up at the brunette, who was wearing a sheepish grin, smiling herself. It was cute, so cute.

"I want to say yes, but I have to tell you something super important." The blonde gulped, she figured this would be the last time that she would ever lay eyes on Emily. She was sure that Emily would get mad for not telling her right away; she was sure the brunette would leave and ask Alison to stay out of her life forever.

Luckily for her, Emily was good about it. 'We'll figure it out.' She had told Alison. It's exactly what she was hoping to hear, well sort of. She wanted to hear Emily say that she would follow her, that she would go wherever the blonde went, but figuring it out had to be worth something. If not, then Emily's confession of 'I'd rather try and get hurt, than wonder what if and be hurt' definitely eased Alison.

Emily was at home, painting away and waiting for Alison to show up. She invited her newly titled girlfriend over to have a paint date. Emily needed to get some work done and sent out. She really wanted to hang out with Alison and she figured this could be fun for the pair, even if hers had to be serious, at least Alison would have fun.

Emily herself had some internal conflict. She was somewhat...disappointed with the blonde for not being straight up but neither was she. Well, hers was about the past while Alison's had to do with the very near future; two completely different ends of the spectrum Emily argued with herself. She paused, thinking if she would ever tell the blonde about her secret. Nobody, besides her parents and the Chief of Police knew, well that she knew of. She was pretty sure her secret was locked down, and that's really how she wanted to keep it. She zoned out even further, listening to the beat of the soft music playing, thinking back on those darker times for herself.