Broken But Disguised

*CHAPTER 1*

"Your home should be a safe heaven not a battlefield. The world is hard enough already."

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Thump. Thump.

My heartbeat echoed through out my body with a fast rhythm as my feet collided against the ground.

Thump. Thump. Thump.

The smell of fresh air and lush greenery after a heavy down pour filled my nose.
It felt heavenly !!

My chestnut brown hair flowed freely behind me. Adrenaline coursed through my body in strong electric waves. An urge to force my legs faster filled me. It felt as if my body was challenging my extremes today.

I forced my legs harder.

I always wanted to do this.
To run wild without giving a care about anything. To experience everything this world could offer.

You must be thinking 'exaggerating much'.

What can I say, it's not everyday that you wake up and can be this free.
It's not everyday that you wake up and do not think that the second you'll open your eyes, your nightmare will begin.

It's not everyday that you wake up and will not be scared to face the monsters in this world.

Its not everyday that you wake up without the fear of being judged, or being called pathetic, hideous or           ....ugly.

Its not everyday that you wake up and not being reminded that you're nothing but a piece of trash. So pathetic that you are just a puppet to your own life. Your every wish, your every move is being dominated by someone else.

Its not everyday that you wake up and do not think that how good life could be if there wasn't one.

Pretty pathetic...isn't it...?

After all, life can be a crazy bitch.

You know like, it is all bright and happy and then suddenly it becomes dark and gloomy. Its like you've been sucked into a dark hole. A place which goes on forever, there is just no way out. The feeling of being....of being stuck. It feels horrible.

And the worst part is that it sucks the life out of you painstaking slowly and killingly and when the pain reaches to an extent where it just crushes you inside-out and makes your soul bleed, you want to give up. It's like someone is strangling you each and every second, every hour, every day. You just can't breathe.

That's the worst part.

And at that moment you just want to feel numb.The thought of nothingness feels better than something at that moment.

We humans are just so naive.
I mean we all got that one person whom we look upon with the hope and trust that they would ease all our problems and confusions.

Person who will take us out of our misery and will show us the bright side. And when that person only becomes the reason of our anguish, everything just becomes so.....dark. There is nothing like a bright side in the end anymore.

You just lose hope.

Have you ever felt like this at some point in your life...?

Because in my case, he did a pretty good job in making my life a living nightmare.
He made sure that I hated each and every second of it.
He made sure that every breath I took would kill me a little from inside.
He made sure that i couldn't feel anything. I was just like an empty vessel. Waiting to be filled with horrors each and every day by him.