Band aids don't fix bullet holes (Rachel

20- homeschooling

Rachel pov

After spending a few minutes cuddling my beautiful girlfriend and daughter, I speak up

"So I was thinking maybe you should try homeschooling since going to school brought back a lot of memories?"

Jenna nods in agreement and Alaska has an unreadable expression on her face.

Alaska pov

I don't know what to think about their idea. Yes I don't want to be in that hell but I don't want to see that Lilly get bullied. My phone buzzed bringing me out of my thoughts to see a text from her it reads,

Hey Lasky,
I'm sorry but you won't see me again because by the time you're reading this I'll be dead at the bottom of the bridge in the park, I wanted to thank you for standing up for me in English but it got worse today they started hitting me and no one cared. This isn't your fault you were the only one to care about me. I can't take this anymore I'm sorry,
Lil
X

No no no she can't be.

"We need to go now!" I yell to no one I'm particular

"Where? what's happened?" Mama J asks

"I don't have time to explain but I need to get the park now!" I say

"Okay I'll drive us both to the park and then you can explain to us what's happening, okay?" Mama J asks

"Okay sure just please she can't be gone" I reply

We get into the car and I explain everything about the text and the people at school, they looked as scared as I do. We arrive to the park and I run towards the bridge and I see a body at the bottom which is definitely Lily. I fall to the ground and sob, Mama J runs towards me and engulf me into a hug.

"I can't do this anymore I've lost two of my best friends in a year" I scream

"Hey it's okay you've us you are strong and you can do this" Mama J says soothingly

I can't do this I'll make it look like I'm fine and walk back to the car but then I'll run and jump off the bridge.

"Okay I don't know if I can stay here anymore." I say. Acting obviously.

"Okay let's go" Mama J

Mama J places her hand on my back. This is going to be hard to run back. Then I think of a good idea..

"I need to do my laces give me a sec" I say as I untie my shoe lace without her noticing

"Okay sure"

She stands in front of me, I need to do up my lace and run for the bridge. Perfect. I do my laces up and I "check" that the other one is tight enough, now's my chance.

"I'm sorry" I say

"What are you doing" Mama j asks

"I'm going to join Lily and Dani"

I say and run to the bridge. I start to climb on top of the railings but Mama J holds my wrist with tears in her eyes

"Don't go we need you" she says her voice breaking

"I've caused you and Mum to both cry surely you want me dead. I know I do" I say

"No we want you to be home with us. Alive. Watching tv and talking to us" she says

"Please.." she starts crying

"Come down" she finishes

I cry and fall into her with my legs wrapped around her waist and my arms around her neck as we both cry. I forgot how much I loved her and Mum

"Hey it's going to be okay, I need to tell Mum though" she says wiping tears

I refuse to talk so I just shake my head and carry on crying. I can feel her walking I'm still surprised she can lift me up I weigh a ton.

"No you don't you're lighter than Marbles" she says

Welp I said that out loud. We get to car and head home in silence except from the occasional sniffle.