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XXIV-I'm sorry

MJ's POV

Yeah, I'm sorry he said looking down while I distance a little bit.

How can he do that say it so easily like I'm nothing to him? Yeah, how dumb am I to think that I'm special to him or more but I'm wrong. I'm nothing to him, all these years I mean nothing, all those sweat, gentleman, caring, worried and more things he was showing and doing means nothing.

But all those things made me think you like me too. And the time that I was going to call you to eat but you were sleeping, I was about to leave but you said those three words and called my name as you said it "I love you." You don't know how painful to get over what you said just know. You don't know anything Am I Wrong? No, I'm not.

No, its fine I understand. I said and my eyes were watery but I bit my button lip to prevent them from falling.

I'll be going back down now. They probably wondering where I am. He said and I just nod and wave my hand at him.

And my the tears were going down and I quietly sob there. I still can't believe what happened just now.

After sobbing there for a good 10 minutes I left and went to the studio to check what they were doing.

When I got there I sat down and watched them walking and doing something.

Hey, you good right there. Namjoon oppa asks while he was putting something in his backpack.

Yeah, I said and he doesn't buy it.

Did you cry? Did someone hurt you? He asks suddenly and I just shake my head

Why is your nose red then and your eyes? -Namjoon

Oh that it's because I stayed on the rooftop and it was cold and something went to my eyes when I was about to leave. WOW, I can't believe I can lie now.

Aigoo, jin oppa said as he messes my hair. You should be careful and stay warm so you wouldn't get sick.

I scrunch my nose and smile at them even when I feel down I still have to act tough for them and of course my self.

Skip 5 weeks
Jungkook and Jieun noona have been close lately and she visits us twice or three times in a week. She talks to me like we're close but I know now why kook likes her.

It's because she's nice, beautiful, have a nice voice, good at dancing and more. Compare to me I'm just me, me being dumb that he likes me and being this happy wonderful person they know but dead on the inside.

It hurts but I'm happy if he's happy with her. I'll be just looking forward to the future. Maybe he's just not right for me and I'm not the one for him either.

*Phone ringing*
Min Ji: hello dad

Dad: Hello sweetie how have you been?

Min Ji: I.. I been very very well.
I got stuck right there.

Dad: I was wondering if you~~

Min Ji: I?~

Dad: you want to go back and finish it.

Min Ji: Dad! I said loud but not in a yelling way.

Dad: Min Ji ah, please. It's for you anyway and you know that.

Min Ji: Yes I know but I can't dad.

Dad: Please think about it. It's a waste if you say no to it.

Min Ji: I know I'll think about it. My dad has been persuading me to go and finish it, but how will I finish it and leave them and especially him.

Dad: thank you sweetheart bye

I look back at my drink and someone came out of their room. You're still awake. He said in deep voice

Did I wake you up I said looking at him while he sat down beside me. Nope No, you didn't I was thirsty that why.