Jay Park, and How He Changed My Life.

"This is way too good to be true..."

  I woke up when the driver stopped the car, mostly because Jay doesn't seem to be the most graceful person when he picks people up. I don't even know how I fell asleep, I'm so nervous. But Jay is so comfortable... He's lifted me out of the car, and into the elevator to his apartment. 

  "Do you feel a little better? You're cute when you're peacefully asleep. You drooled a little." He laughed, and I felt him squeeze me tighter against him. I was enjoying this too much... Once we made it into his apartment, he placed me on a soft cushion couch. The lighting was very dim, was it mood lighting as they call it in movies? I couldn't tell. 

  "Here, eat. After that, I want you to watch a movie with me. It's an international movie, called Ip Man. Lee recommended it to me earlier." He looked confused by it, but seemed interested by it regardless. I stood up, and took off Jay's hoodie and began to unlace my corset and slip off my heels. 

  "I'm sorry, this is probably odd. They just aren't very comfortable when I'm sitting and eating." I turned around to see Jay watching me, and stuffing his face. It was a rather cute sight. "You're fine, but I kind of want to learn more about you. You mentioned an ex, is he someone I need to worry about?", I thought he was joking but his face looked serious... 

  "Are you sure you want to hear about that? That's  uh... A really dark part of my life. I haven't exactly had a very good life, leading up to me moving to Korea..." Jay nodded. "If you can talk about it, I'll listen. I want to know more about you, because I don't plan on just seeing you once. I'd like to have you in my life, Nika. You've done more than just give me a hard on tonight, I'm very drawn to you." I giggled a little, but my heart skipped. Tonight seems to be full of surprises...

  I finished my food before I began to speak. I was starving, so this didn't take long. I started from the very beginning, when my dad left. 

  "My mom turned to alcohol and drugs after he left. I was an only child, so I was always there for her to lash out on. She was usually cruel to me, would just talk down on me and make me feel bad about myself... She would hit me sometimes, but she stopped that once I grew taller and bigger. After that, she was just hurtful about my appearance. I felt so ugly..." Jay had pulled me into his lap again, once I trailed off. I rested my head on his shoulder, and he laid his against my forehead. His hand stroked my outer thigh, and the other was holding my left hand. 

  "Jay... Can I kiss you?" He sat up, and looked at me questioningly. Jay released my hand to place it on my cheek, and pressed his lips to mine.

  I felt as if that kiss stopped time. I shifted myself to where I was straddling his toned thighs, tangling my fingers in his hair, and I softly bit his bottom lip. His lips tasted like his drink, which was sweet. I felt his hands slowly make their way to my hips, and he lifted me up and laid my back on the couch, taking full control. But then he stopped...

  "I want to know more about you, Nika. We have plenty of time tonight to continue on with that... But I want us to talk." My head was spinning, I just made out with someone I had basically been in love with for years, and here he is... He's begging me to talk to him about my life.

  "Well, I guess I should tell you about my ex." I swallowed hard. I know it'll upset him and scare him, what happened... But he's pushing everything aside to hear about it. He's basically still pinning me down, his eyes are locked with mine. "He was bad... Worse than my mom, honestly. His name was Gio, an Italian kid like me. I use to think that since we spoke the same language, he would be the only one who understood me... I was dead wrong."

  I took a deep breath through my mouth, and out through my nose. I felt my eyes begin to water, and say lifted me back onto his lap again, I was straddling him once more. His hands were on my thighs, while mine were intertwined with my arms resting on his shoulders. Jay had such a worried look on his face. "What did he do to you?" He spoke softly, as he lifted a hand to wipe the tears that escaped the sides of my eyes. "He broke me, truthfully. He did it all, he hit me and belittled me... Just like she did. He was my first and only relationship. We were together from the time I was 15,  until I was 18. We broke up when I told him I was moving here, because I just couldn't handle it anymore..." I started crying badly now.

  "I tried to kill myself. Not because of him, but because I thought I was unlovable. My mom, dad, even my boyfriend, they all hated me. So I wanted to die... I'm sorry if this is all too much. But that's a part of my life... But I'm not that fragile little girl anymore." He didn't break his gaze from me... I hope that means he isn't going to get rid of me. 

  "Nika, I'm not easily frightened. You are strong... But come with me, you need to get all that makeup off, and you need to get showered. I think I have something that'll get your glitter off."