Limit Reached

Thoughts

  Trigger warning at the end!
You've been warned. ⚠️ + read my author's note ty

Deku's POV

I sat uptight around a circle of five as Kirishima asked lida a truth or dare.

"Truth, huh? Such a wimp," he murmured under his breath, as lida ignored the remark.

"Is it true you suck dick for free?" blurted Kacchan, in which I slapped him on his leg.

"Kacchan!" shouted everyone.

"Sorry, okay?" he rubbed the area I hit, making a bittersweet smirk.
"Goodness. You have no class," sighed lida.

"Anyways," Kirishima cleared his throat.
"Is it true that your brother is an actual hero?"
lida's eyes sparkle in delight.
"Oh, yes! In fact, he's one of the top heroes!" he roared in pride.
"Nice, bro!" Kirishima rolled his eyes. "Your turn now."

lida casually fixed his glasses and looked at me.
"Midoriya. Truth or dare?" He smirks out of bad intent. I never thought I would see that look on him before.
"Um..." I pause, trying to avoid eye contact with Kacchan.

"Dare." I declare.

"I dare you to kiss Todoroki."

And there he was, right across from Kacchan and I, staring blankly with a red tint on his face.

"That's revenge for being disrespectful, Kacchan." lida noticed how angry he was.

"Deku. No." Kacchan took both of my shoulders.

"This isn't fun anymore. Fuck off, four eyes!" He began throwing a fit, which caused Kirishima to hold him down by his limbs.

"It's a dare! Just do it quickly!" He sweats out as he struggles to pin Kacchan.

And in less than a second, Todoroki planted his lips on mine, locking it for a good five seconds.
I tried to pull away, but his grasp was too strong. I immediately felt a roaring guilt afterwards.

"Todo..." I pause, locking my eyes with his.
"Hm?" He blushes. "Was I, um, going too far?.."
"It's fine. It was a dare.."

Everyone around us felt a bit gloomy like I did, except lida.

"Haha, that was great." He intimidates Kacchan's signature smirk.

Kirishima was hesitant to let go of Kacchan, who was practically like a wild tiger at this point, but instead untaped his mouth slowly.

"YOU BITCH!" His eyes fall directly on the red-faced Todoroki.
"I'M GOING TO FUCK ALL OF YOU UP SO BADLY! WATCH, YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO COME TO SCHOOL TOMORROW IF YOU LOOK LIKE A ROTTING CORPSE!" Kacchan struggles to free himself from Kirishima's grasp.

"God, your mouth sure can run, Kacchan." He added nonchalantly.

"SHUT YOUR TRAP AND LET ME GO! YOU ALREADY ARE ON MY SHIT LIST! DON'T FUCK WITH ME LIKE THIS!"

For a split second, I could've swore I saw a saddened look on Kirishima.

He let go of the wild beast, which sent everything haywire.

Kirishima and I stood back as Kacchan took a few fire blows to his two targets. I felt so bad.

"Okay, Kacchan, that's enough." I try to tame him.
Instead, he gave me a 'I fucking hate you too' look.
Oh, no. Not this again.

I suddenly felt the urge to go home, and leave everyone here behind.
And I did.

When I went to my bedroom, I had a total breakdown.
Suicidal thoughts started spinning in my head, and I felt the urge;
The urge to take my life away. I'm not good enough for Kacchan, and my emotions are too strong for him to handle.
It's all my fault our relationship is like this.
All.
My.
Fault.

I was totally unaware of what I was doing. My emotions were totally controlling me.
Hell, Kacchan doesn't need me. He has Kirishima.
Todoroki recently started crushing on Momo. That kiss was just embarrassing, which he must've thought. Not cute, or romantic.

I'm easily replaced. I'm just temporary.

At that moment, there was a voice inside my head,
saying I was better off dead.

Before I knew it, there was a needle in my hand.
What am I doing?
I want to do this?
I want to hurt myself?
How long have I been hiding this?

Without thinking, I sliced the item across my clean wrist.

Author's Note:
i think everyone is losing their grip over this ending. let me explain this to you.
deku's emotions triggered when kacchan got mad (in the chapter it mentions him glaring a "i fucking hate you" look to deku) which, in deku's eyes, means kacchan would put up a huge fight, and most likely abuse him emotionally (yelling at him, insulting, etc.) which makes deku suicidal. this whole emotional burst was held inside of him since the beginning of their relationship, it's just not mentioned in the chapters because it's self explanatory and repetitive. kacchan hasn't reached his full character development yet :) lmao sorry for this long ass paragraph but this needed to be said.

I've been losing motivation to make chapters, so that's why I haven't been consistent lately c:
I plan on posting another chapter this month for Christmas, and then until next year!
happy holidays btw xoxo