Everyday | pjm

D-9

Last night, was the weirdest and rarest night i've ever been through.

Like, somehow i felt like Jimin is the one who put the cockroach on the floor, beside the sofa, where i should've been sleeping. But no. I've asked him and he was literally knocked my head for asking that question.

But somehow, its nice to see his bright smile again. Oh, don't forget the eye-smile too. He started laughing and he looks better now.

I made myself out, even though Jimin desperately wants me to stay with him that day. But i said that i have an important check up with a patient and he understood that. He let me go and see me out.

Well yes, at first Jimin wants to send me home but i insist that he should rest and get back to work tomorrow. Hm.. he listen well.

I showered and change my clothes as i went home then I took cab to work.

>>>

"So.. again," I looked up, and rolled my eyes.

"What, again?" I asked Yeri. She scoffed and poked my face. "Has your face broken or something or your brain is just ain't functioning anymore?"

"What the hell are you talking about, Yeri?" I groaned.

She clicks her tounge. "You are smiling alone, again! And this time, with small laugh. How is that not weird." She frowned.

I stood up from my office chair and walk to her. "Its no—"

"Ack!!" Yeri pointed her finger infront of my face. "And don't even say that it was nothing."

"The way i see it, its obviously way more than nothing," she crossed his hand and lift her right eyebrow.

I smiled, widely. She got me.

So i start telling her everything. About why i'm smiling at the first place and about yesterday too, of course. And.. Jimin's confession too, which i turn him down stupidly.

"What?! You rejected him?! After all that smiles and laughs?!" her eyes were wide open. She 'bang' her palm on my desk and looked at me straight in the eyes.

Okay she looks 2 times scarier than she was. Lol.

I scoffed. "Then what should i do? Said i love you too and kiss him?"

"Yes!!"

"What? No! Don't you see? I am imperfect, not like those other girls! I am not worth it and trust me when i say i don't deserve him!" I shook my head, hardly.

She groaned. "Park Seowon, the only thing that hold you now is yourself!"

Istg i'm about to burst into laughter. "What are you talking about?"

She sighed and started, "you do love him. And you're afraid of loving him more will cause you selfishness like you had, 8 years ago."

The words stung right in my heart.

I can't say anything. I can't reply anything. My head slowly tilted down, looking to my fingers.

"Seowon, i know its hard for you to let go of that memory. But please, can you forget it now? It had passed and nothing you can do about it." Yeri stroke my hand, sighed. She got up and leave.

Ahh.. why now.