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{warning: this poem deals with depression, self harm, and suicide. Please read carefully and understand that depression and everything that comes along with it is not a joke, nor something to be romanticized.}

One
Thought started it all

Two
Thoughts made me remember it

Three
Cuts made me wince

Four
Cuts made me smile

Five
Days I regretted it

Six
Days later I did it again

Seven
Cuts I did this time

Eight
I lied

Nine
Weeks later it was a addiction

Ten
Weeks later I gave up trying to stop

Eleven
Weeks later my parents found out

Twelve
Weeks later they signed me up for therapy

Thirteen
Times I yelled at them

Fourteen
Times I was secretly thankful

Fifteen
Weeks later things were getting better

Sixteen
Weeks of feeling good until things got bad

Seventeen
Time I tried to stop

Eighteen
Times I thought about how

Nineteen
Minutes is how long it took to a write a note

Twenty
Pills I took

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