recluse //fillie

your eyes

Millie's POV

me and Finn sat on the grass, admiring the full moon and the stars.
school ended 4 hours ago and we have been here ever since. we have been battling those stupid mosquitoes but after a while, we gave up and finally talked, ignoring the pesky bugs hovering all over us.

"it's weird you know; how the stars appear so small from Earth but if you are in space, they're so big. I always have been interested in space since I was 5. " Finn suddenly says.

"yeah, me too. I always wanted to go to outer space. I wanted to be the first woman to go to space, but my dream was crushed into pieces when I read an article in fifth grade about a cosmonaut being the first female on space." I state.

"not me. whenever I look at your brown eyes, I feel like I'm in space. maybe even out of the Milky Way. for you, they might seem boring, but they aren't. I see so much emotion in them. sparks of colors shooting around like fireworks. your eyes, they're like two pools so deep, I fear if I dive in, I might never come up for air. and your smile, the sun itself turns jealous, knowing it cannot shine as bright." he breathes out.

after my brain registered all of what he just said, I can't help but blush a little. just a little. I don't turn into a tomato or anything like the way the authors describe their characters when they blush in the books I read. I was so glad it was dark out. it would be such an embarrassment if he saw what he does to me.

"I uhh.. it's getting late, I better go. see you tomorrow, yeah?" I say due to my lack of words because of what the freckled boy just told me.

"uhh yeah sure. don't forget to chat me, Brown."

earlier, he told me his Facebook account. I couldn't believe he was still using Facebook, but I gave in and told him I'd chat him on Messenger.

"god, you're such a dork." I groan

"and you're beautiful, Millie Bobby Brown."

I let out a quick chuckle before leaving. I couldn't get any more embarrassed.

Finn's POV

god, why have I said that? Millie doesn't like me that way. it's so weird. we just met a couple days ago and now i'm already giving clues of me being head over heels for her. she was absolutely gorgeous. her short brown hair. I love how she doesn't have long hair, it makes her different. her eyes which I just stated how beautiful. I could say all the things that made me fall for her, but that would take forever. too bad she only sees me as a friend and not the way I see her. unrequited love is so painful.

your infatuation never goes away, even though you know the person can never return back the feeling. although it still hurts, you still continue. your heart turns into this stubborn kid at Toys R' Us that refuses to go unless he buys his desired toy. it was absolutely pathetic.

ever since I met Millie. it was never the same. when I'm with her, it's like I'm me, but like, a better me. people didn't like me at school. I never did anything, I just truly never fit in. i was sad; that is until she entered my life. all my classes turn into a blur because all I can ever think about is us meeting in out place. what we would talk about and stuff.

I was a sad boy, and she was a sad girl. together, we would try our best to bring ourselves back into the surface of the dark abyss our fucked up minds and fucked up lives led us to. patch up the holes in our hearts that were created by the people we made memories with in the past. we would make each other happy because she deserves the universe. never would she ever deserve to go through the pain she is currently in. I would make up the spots that were left by her friends back in the UK. I would show her that she is loved.

after spending another 30 minutes in the hill, I got up and went home. Millie doesn't know this. she thinks that I go straight home a few moments after her departure. I register what we talked about and summarize how the rest of my day went without her and I being civil to each other yet.

the truth is, I would die to be able to talk to her in class. to show her to my own little group of friends. to talk to her during lunch. to laugh so hard that little bits of food come flying out of our mouths. I just wish I could be the me I am when I am with her in the hill. I wish that people in school would just not be so judgmental. I want to be with her every second, of every minute, of every hour, of every day, of every week, of every month, of every year.

A/N: sooo a LOT of shit is revealed in this chapter because I need fillie to be #confirmed. also, a little trolls reference there because I wrote this in my paper in school and my childish friends were watching trolls. some types confused me because I'm not up for that DEEP of writing yet, but I'm learning! goodbye my peeps
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