Behind Closed Doors (Queen Of Hearts)

Chapter 1

I sat their on my bed thinking of my future and what to do next. I found out I was adopted just now and I wasn't sure where to go with it. Should I stay or go? If I go where do I stay? Amy real mom is in jail and my dad is unknown. Plus I was confused about whether I like boys or girls. Did I care? So many questions quickly stuck their thoughts in my head. I went to my brother's room and got a paper.

Then I pulled a pen of my pocket and started writing. I wrote about the situation and how I must go to find my way. Joey would never agree to it, but I had. At least that is  what I thought at the moment. I had to go in the morning though. I hard him come in so I tried to leave, but he stopped me. Gently guiding me back inside his room. I sat in the bed feeling like a kid in trouble.

"Sorry I am late I go-"

He picked up the note then looked at me and back at the note. Joey then sat the note on the bed and looked at me with a soft look. Like he understood how I felt and wasn't mad at me. He hugged me gently then looked at the bags across the hall that were packed up in my room. The zippers perfectly lining upon as the light shined on the cherry red case. He looked back at me and stood up leaning against the dresser blocking the view of the suitcases.

"Are you just going to leave? I mean you know that mom isn't my real mom, but you will never find a more loving family then here."

"Joey I just want to go."

"Why? Jamie please stay...I don't want to make your decisions for you though. What if I help you with you find out if you like guys or girls. Here let me sit down," he sat down then continued,"Would you like that?"

"Sure."

"Okay...here feel this," he put his hand on mone and guided it to his muscle he made on his on,"Do you like the feeling of strength and protection? "

"Yes," I said looking at him.

"How about this?" he kissed me on the lips gently.

"Umm yes."

"Lets try that again."

He kissed me again with more passion behind it this time. He pulled away but I didn't want him to I kissed him back with passion behind it. I leaned back on his bed as he held me close to him. We made out  almost like we were siblings. Like nothing could stop us and I liked it more than anything. He pulled away again but this time I didn't stop him. I leaned my arm back to resting myself on my elbow partly.

"Can I show you what it is like to be with a guy? Would that help you?"

"Sure," I said almost whispering it

"I mean you know I love you and would never hurt you."

"I know Joey...I love you too."

"Okay well usually when a guy touches you here," he said rubbing my inner thigh,"Girls get wet there," he says going near my vagina. I nodded letting him know I was listening to him. "If a guy touches your nipples and they get hard it means that you like it. Here let me check if your wet okay?"

"Okay."

He got off the bed and started to undo my jean shorts, removing my belt first. I watched him thinking about how many times he must have done this with a girl. But then I stopped I wanted it to be special and not about others. He slipped my jeans off and put them on the floor. Then he looked at me for directions but I had none. He got on his knees and move his fingers across my clit which made me moan a little. He smiles and moves it a little more then stopped. He moved his fingers out the way and moved his head closer sticking his tongue in me.

"Your so wet Jamie. "

I moaned louder this time as he move his finger in as his moved inside me. With his free hand held me still so I didn't move too much. Although his hand wasn't firm there it was just there without meaning. He continued like that checking in with me along the way. I would tell him I am okay and not to worry. He stopped and took his shorts off then looked at me with a gentle look. I think it was mostly driven by passion though.