My life

Feeling empty. 12-8-17

Do you ever have a feeling that makes you feel so empty that you just don't know what's wrong. Yep, that's me right now. There just doesn't seem like I could do anything to make it go away either. I just don't ever know what's wrong. 

Today we had a bad sub in Spanish. She kept on telling me and my friends (Madison and Macy) to stop talking. We already had our work done though. I also missed one on my Spanish test that was easy. I don't think that's the problem. 

Then, I was in Bible. I sit next to Lily and I looked at her computer to see if her test had loaded because mine didn't. I guess he thought I was looking off of her test and he moved me. I didn't even know what I did. He just said "Do you mind to move up here, Kyra?" and I said "Yeah, sure." I don't really think that's it either. 

We have been planning our winter formal lately. Hunter, our president, has been talking avidly about all the games we could play. He came up with one he wants to do with guys and they have to guess their date. He has also been mad about not being able to dance with our date. I don't even like him that much, but I guess I got my hopes that he might ask me for some reason. Well, he asked Ashley instead. It was even worse when I saw him by her locker and she was laughing. Then to make things worse, Ashley came by during Math class and asked if she could take Hunter to Mrs. Wilkes room with her. I didn't say a word during math and almost started to cry. I wasn't really sad about anything in particular, but I guess all my emotions piled up to become that. 

Anyways, it's like 10 at night and I still have this empty feeling that just isn't sitting right. I kinda want to kill someone. My bday party is next Saturday and I really don't want to have it. I don't want Ashley and Hunter to come. I also feel like nobody will come anyway though. It all makes me sick. I just wish I would've invited the person I actually like to get to know them better. Oh well. This week is going to suckkkk.