People Are Poison

Do i even exsist anymore? Or am i just here and there

I feel as though
My body is no longer my own
I've been taken over
And I'm not in control

My mind is in another place
While I'm stuck in a traffic jam
Wondering how to escape
The mess I made

All I do is create chaos
I wish I wasn't who I am
I'm the last one you'd expect
That was dying within

But I'm not okay
I'm not alright
I'm dying so much I've given up
With this life

I'm not me anymore
I don't even know who I was
Or who I've become
I'm just here and there

I follow the crowd
And get lost insight
I blend in so much
Do I even make a difference in your mind

I wanted to be someone
But now I'm no one
I use to be noticeable
Now I'm nothing at all

I used to be the best friend
The person people counted on
Now no one trust me
No one tells me anything

But what did I expect?
I'll never be the nicest person
I'll never be the most entertaining
I'll never be the person someone falls in love with
I'll just be there and here