Life.

1.Life of an Average Teenager

Dear School, DECEMBER 10 2017

You want to know how I feel about you? Over the past four school years alone, you have caused multiple panic attacks, and near emotional breakdowns for me as I lay in bed at night, staring at the childish ceiling of my quiet bedroom. Hours of unnecessary stress, hours of excessive panic. Hours of excessive feelings of being overwhelmed by a load of homework and assessments. Life is stressful, sure, but life is at the point where I get frustrated with myself for failing to understand things that I'm "suppose to already know" There is no such thing that's realistic as expectations of what each and everyone one of us should know how to do in school. Everyone works at their own pace, no one needs to be sorry for what they can or cannot do. Instead of getting proper help when needed, they get told to try again, talk to teachers in order to improve.

What else is there to it? The fact that the educational system places more value on athletics rather than academics. Isn't that kind of funny in a way? You go to school in order to receive an education, but the main focus, provided that you are not an honors class taking kiddo like me, is on sports that the majority of people in school could not care less about. Hours spent at idiotic practices, often being detrimental to your health for the rest of your life. Now, I'm not referring to ever single sport that is played at school but rather the ones that receive tons of recognition in the media, socially, and in school. Sports valued on a pedestal such as football, soccer, and sometimes basketball. Other sports often get undervalued and left unrecognized in school such as volleyball and swimming and tennis. Please explain the concept of how by someone playing a popularized sport, it equates into popularity. However, the same concept does not get applied to intelligence and academics. In school, being a smart kiddo means you get labelled a stereotypical "nerd" and resulting in yourself being lower in the social hierarchy. Unfortunately, a thing that is existing in the twenty- first century along with other outdated school issues.

UPDATE January 29th 2018

I think i'm going to publish this a little bit later but the latest struggle for me has been feeling like I need to understand something we learned in class that EVERYONE else gets except for me and the teacher will do almost absolutely nothing in order to help me. This week is midterm week so obviously I spent the week studying in order to do well so that I can succeed in school. Today during math I felt pretty good for the most part about what I was writing on my exam. However, when it came time for Biology, I like many others struggled greatly on much of the test. This just made me feel reaffirmed in the multiple random bouts of panicking and over-stressing that I had felt in just this past weekend alone. Now obviously this is something that I only chose to talk about with a limited amount of people however if there are others like me who feel this way about school? Hey I will always be here for you come talk to me about whatever and that everyone will make it through somehow someway and someday. Have a good week! :)