2.It Is NOT your fault.

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occasional cursing ahead.

 At one point or another, we all lie awake at night terrified by thinking of something that has happened in the past. It still dwells in our minds even when the person has long since forgotten what happened and most importantly, you. You being the reader, are not to be blamed, are not at fault, cannot blame yourself. Sure for a long time you thought the other person was right to blame you but... it's time to move on to a better life with better times. It is not your fault that you spent days feeling alone not knowing what they meant by what they had said out of anger to you. It is not your fault that you did not want to change a part of yourself for them if they were unwilling to do the same for you. It is not your fault that they had moved on and left you behind and discarded as though you were a piece of fucking trash. You are not that. You are not any of that. You deserve to be loved, cherished, cared for, *just keep telling yourself that until you believe it*. To the future people who care, it is not because they do not trust you. At a certain point, every single person can only handle a certain amount of pain and stress and anxiety before they decide to shut down and just pretend everything is just fine WHEN ITS NOT. 

Sometimes, you just wish you could have never met this person so none of those awful things they did to you would have never happened. Here's some tough love for everyone and myself included: I hate to say it, they made you a stronger person in an awful way. It will be worth it. How? The sooner you recognize the need to and remove yourself from the equation of an awful situation and make yourself an independent individual once again the happier you will feel. It might be one of the hardest decisions of your life so far to leave that toxic relationship with your friend, best friend, or significant other. But in a messed up sense of similar experience, it truly is the best course of action for one to take. Why? Eventually you will encounter and be involved with someone better. I can guarantee with almost absolute certainty the fact that they will make you question why and how you ever made the decision to be involved with the previous person for such a long period of time only for your feelings and self esteem to be hurt over and over again. In all honesty, it will feel like fresh air and wonder where they've been for so long. 

you are not a burden.

you are valued.

you are loved.

what you have to say is important.

you are not a waste of time and space.

your feelings are valid.

(credits go to tumblr user {unknown so if you do please tell}

(This is not meant to blame anyone. These are simply thoughts that have been in my mind.)

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