Endurance

Chapter 2

Waking up

        I wake up to the sound of my phone vibrating. I roll over and before I can get my phone his arm stops me. I look at him confused as to why he's here and at what time it is. It was still dark so I knew it had to be early in the morning. I layed there thinking, asking my self was that all just a nightmare?

''What's wroung, are you ok rose? ''

      Rose he called me Rose, obviously it wasnt a dream. I panicked trying to get out of my bed, to lock my self in my bathroom. He grabed me to calm me down, but that doesn't work. I feel the urge to cry again but fight my tears. I don't want him to know how hurt I am. I calmed my self down and layed there, him still holding me. I tried my best not to shake or cry.

''Talk to me, tell me whats wrong'' he says it softly in my ear. I stayed quite, still. The only part of me that moved was my breathing.

''I'm fine, nothings wrong'' I said it in a voice that didn't sound like me. It was too quite, like my voice had vanished.

''I know thats not the truth, tell me please'' he begs in a voice so quite it almost matched my own. I couldn't hold it in any more I cryied, I lost controll of my self. Everything ran together in a mix of emotions that I didn't know how to understand. I felt lost in a sea of emotions. 

''Please, dont cry.'' he says softly.

''Christopher how can I not, my hearts been ripped away from me.'' I say it in a tone that shows my pain. He looks at me for a moment. I feel his eyes on me, I just turn my face the other way and lay it on my pillow. My body starts to shake and I know why. The pain, it hits all at once. I feel like im gonna pass out, I cry from the pain. It stays in my chest, burning like a fire. He kisses my cheek, I stare at him in question.

        I wanted to kiss him so bad, but I knew better. I couldn't do that, not after whats happened. He shouldn't even be here, shouldn't be laying on top of me. I thought about that for a moment and why he was laying here with me. The pain slowly went away after that thought.

''I don't know what to say, I just...why?'' I asked him, in almost a whisper. He doesn't answer me, instead he moves my hair out of my face and wipes my tears I didn't even know was there, away.

''Why?'' I ask again

''Because I love you, and dont want to hurt you. I just can't love you the way you love me.''

       I stared at him, I couldn't think of anything to say. I wrapped my arms around him, hopeing he would understand.

''Rose, just promise me you won't do anything.'' he says in his pleading voice and I know he's serious.

''Ok.'' Its all I could say.

        He started to move, I didn't want him to leave and I knew thats what he was going to do. I huged on tighter, not wanting to let go.

''I have to go, you know I do.''

''Please, stay just please Chris.'' I begged him like my life depened on it.

''Alright, I'll stay.''

        He layed back down beside me. I curled up beside him, hugging him for my life. I tried not to let him know I was crying, but I know he knew. He played with my hair, only cause he knew it would make me go to sleep. I started to feel my eye lids get heavy and I drifted off to sleep.