Lusting Over You

On MY Knees For You

DeVon DeVante DeGrate was finally born and I went through hell  with him and when he was finally placed in my arms clean and snug as a bug is when I can finally see him...

Hazel eyes adorn his face and curly black curls adorn the crown of his head..

Taja smiles when she sees him..

"Girl that ain't yo son, he got his daddy face everywhere, you might as well say your husband had him not you!"

I roll my eyes..

"Damn he couldve looked like me, shit I carried him for nine months."

"Bitch why you complaining, you can finally go clubbing, your figure will bounce back."

She hands me back DeVon and shakes her head..

"Are you going to send the divorce papers to DeVante?"

I look at my son and sigh..

"I already did two days ago, he should be getting it sometime this week."

"What's wrong?"

"I'm sad we couldn't be together."

Three days later I'm released and ready to go home and guess what Taja pulls up in a minivan and I can't help but smile...

"What the fuck is this about?"

"Bitch that's my son to and since we best friends forever and family I'm helping you take care of our baby."

She helps me buckle DeVon car seat in and then I slide in beside him..

He was sleeping so I just stared at him amazed me and his father created this beautiful life, I'm just mad his father missed out on this micralous adventure.....

Taja stays with me for two days before she leaves and enjoys her singlehood life and I'm left a brand new mom in a brand new apartment..

The night I'm settled in bed reading a book is when I hear like light raps at my door..

Now mind you it's raining and it's eleven thirty at night so what the fuck was that at my door...

I open the door slowly and instead of Taja who I thought was there stood my husband shirtless and drunk..

"Baby please come back to me, I miss you so much, I admit I fucked up but please take me back!"

I stand there looking at him..

"Please baby my arms are open wide, I need your love, please baby, I'm begging you to forgive me."

He walks up to me and he grabs my hands..

"DeVante I cant."

"Baby let me see my child at least, please."

I stare at him and feel my knees getting weak...

"Fine but you have to leave after that and where's your shirt?"

"Fuck a shirt, I want you back with me, you can't keep my child from me, I'm glad Taja told me where to find you, I had to decide when it was best to approach you."

I make a mental note to curse her ass out for that, I was ready to go upside both they heads and she knew i was trying to move on from him...

I close and lock my door and then I lead the way to my sleeping son..

DeVante picks him up as soon as he see him..

"Damn, this my little man huh?"

I smile and watch him sit in the rocking chair and hold his son..

"What's his name?"

"DeVon."

"I like it, so are you coming back."

"No."

He touches his son's curls and looks to me.

"Please, baby I'm so lonely, you and I need to try and work this out."

"What the fact you humiliated me and made me feel worthless."

"You seduced my father."

"I didn't try to, he made me feel um I don't know."

I feel embarrassed and just stand there avoiding eye contact..

"You know Taja tried to kiss me."

"What you truly doing here?"

"Let's just take this slowly or at least decide an agreement, let me chill here on Friday untill Sunday night and then I go home."

I stare at him it was no point in playing myself, I mean we was married and it felt like he was bullshiting me....

I wanted remain married but not of he changed his ways but if he didn't change his ways I would send him on his way..
I took a deep breath and then I nod my head..

"First time you say something outta hand,  I'm done with you."

He grins..

"I'm hold my son for a little bit and then I want to talk some more."

I nod and slip to my room..

I wanted him to bond with his son and didint need to stand over watching over his shoulder...

I dose off and when I wake up DeVante is standing over me..

"Let me ask you something, so you still love me?"

"Yes, I do."

He lays beside me in my bed and wraps his arms around me..

"Don't be mad because I can't control myself when I'm around you. I don't ever want to lose you, you make my heart happy and the thought of you moving on and leaving me is crazy, I got the papers you sent for divorce and I don't want to lose you and I want to be there for my son."

"We have to work on us before we can move back in with each other."

"Can I have some ass since we at least trying."

"DeVante go home."

"Baby I'm sorry, I'm still a man and I know you ain't let no nigga up in there."

"I can't have sex for six weeks , I just had your child."

"Can I at least get some head and you let me feel some titties?"

I stand up now..

"I'll see you on Friday DeVante!"

He laughes and gets his glasses and slips them on..

"Till then, but ima warning you, I ain't had sex in months, best believe ima beat that pussy up when I see you."

I watch him leave nd I lean against my front door and sigh..

What the fuck am I doing????????????