The Feelings of a Once Lost Girl

My Love & Sun

My love,

I learned that not everything a person says is true.

Even with a promise attached to the phrase or sentence,

It will always be just words with no meaning.

Your promises had no meaning,

Because you never meant any of them.

You captivated me with your saccharine words,

Grand gestures of flowers and surprise dates,

Homemade food with all of my favorite things.

Words about our future life was on repeat for days,

And here I was.

I stood tall and took in all of your words,

Embraced each one and carved them on my skin.

So afraid of forgetting that I tried so hard,

Too hard to make sure I never forget any of them.

And now, I wish I didn't go through all that effort.

A dark room with only myself as company,

Tissue littering the floor as if that's the only place they should be.

A silence so loud that even I can't seem to bear,

Broken only by the breeze of the trees outside my window.

I remember the way you touched my hand,

Always feather-like & cautious but seemed so aware of the sparks.

Sparks you claimed to have felt with me and only me.

Have those sparks gone with the days that passed by?

You treated me like a precious porcelain doll.

Rough was always something you avoided,

As if touching me harder would break the surface of my skin.

As if making me bleed was the worst thing you could ever do to me.

You took my dreams with the excuse of wanting to share them,

Declared the love you claimed to possess with confidence like an actor,

And left with someone new after a few months.

Parting ways with me and our love with the words I will never forget.

'My sun, you deserve someone who can give you love as intense and as bright as the sun in the sky.'

'You are my sun and always will be. But a human can't stay with the sun without burning.'

'I can't give you the love you wish to receive, even if you don't demand it.'

'You've been the greatest gift and the saddest story to have ever been a part of my life.'

'I love you, my sun. But this is our goodbye.'