If you looked up on a dictionary the word : " Social" , there would be a picture of the younger me,because I made friends wherever I went and we would play together for hours.
The reasons why I started losing friends :
1.As a child I moved out and in lots of times, so even if I became friends with the neighbors we would move out before I got to know them better and since I didn't use the internet back then there wasn't any way that I could stay in touch with my neighbors.
2. Since my phone/internet addiction I lost more friends irl that I gained online.That seems normal nowadays,but I lost the ability to make friends and talk to people . Just because I'm loud,it doesn't mean that I like social events.I am socially awkward , it just doesn't show that much.
3. I grew up and I became more mature.....I think.What if I'm still a bit childish and that's why I don't have many friends? If I was to be cast in Mean girls I would be the girl that "doesn't even go here" ( if you've seen the movie you know exactly what part I'm talking about).
The conclusion is : i) When your age number gets higher your number of friends gets lower. ii) Your number of friends is not that important because who would prefer having lots of fake friends over having only like 2 , but true friends?
And here's my friendship status each year:
Kindergarten : LITERALLY EVERYONE. It was amazing.
1st and 2nd grade: 2 friends only.What can I say?People didn't like me at all(and they still don't)
3rd+4th+5th+6th grade: I changed school and I was expecting that everyone would want to be my friend just because I was the new girl.Yeah.....I was wrong. I had 1 friend and then she changed school at 5th grade,but then I got another friend( that is still my friend after all these years)
7th grade: Half of the school literally.I was still social then and lots of people wanted to be my friend.
8th+9th grade:And that't where depression started.I didn't want to talk to anyone and I kept arguing with people so I lost lots of friends like that. Now I'm stuck with my stupid two friends.....Great! Just kidding I fucking love them and I'm so happy that they're by my side.
I want to apologize to all the friends that I lost just because I wasn't in the mood to talk to them and then we completely lost contact.
I want to thank my 2 besties,Kona and Dora, for being there for me no matter what the conditions are and for motivating me every day to get out of bed and going to school.Because they're the main reason I go to school
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Goodbye me
RandomAs a child I was very social and had lots of friends and my parents were proud of me , since I was a straight A student and I got one certificate after another. But all that was before I got depressed and as a result , my life got ruined . And this...
