Dear world,
I'm sorry I can't be me. I just want to be myself without having to be in the middle.
My mind is currently swarming with so many different emotions I feel like I'm drowning, drowning in a dazed world that has become my own. I feel happy about one thing and confused and upset about it at the same time. I feel washed out like the shore has just brought me back to land but still drowning hopelessly at the same time.
I'm weak and confused about everything in my life right now.
Knowing your going to hurt someone is the worst thing. Trying to figure out when to be loyal to someone, and when to look out for them is one of the hardest things of all. When do I know that I have to do something? When do I know when I should be nice to someone, but also give myself the space I need. And what hurts the most, is when you know they may never forgive you, and even though it hasn't happened yet, you still know you will be doing the right thing.
Fishing out what you need to keep, and throw back into the ocean, but then realizing you can't tell the difference anymore because the fog is too strong. Then the air gets so heavy that the water lashes out around your small boat and forces you under again, losing everything you thought you had.
I wish that I could have the faith in myself that others have in me. I've had an artist block that has been majorly affecting my life for about half a year now, and for part of the time I didn't even realize it. I feel washed out, and flooded at the same time. I feel relieved, but scared of the same thing.
I feel like the friendly waters I knew will suddenly be full of electric eels and tangling seaweed, forcing me to stay where I am, losing grasp of the world above me that I can just barely reach, but just enough to know what I'm missing. Enough to know that I feel like I may never get out, and have nothing to rely on anymore besides the ocean floor.
Feeling like I'll never get anything done no matter how hard I try.
>--Lost at sea--<
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Bursting Bubbles
PoesíaThese are my deep thoughts/ stories because I decided that the deep ones needed their own book. A few of these might be in my stories/ ideas book but they will be here as well. These may be poem-like or story-like it honestly just depends. I also ha...
