SHE KNOWS(BWWM)

Chapter 16

You understood me
You saw my soul through my cold eyes
You made me feel something that l never felt but
You loved her
You thought she was beautiful
You never saw what i felt for you and i shall never spill water that has been spilled and wasted
I shall never feel something like i felt for you.

Anonymous

Aurora POV

He was getting married and I could not do anything about it but just stare at they television . Unspoken words were left and untouched words were waiting to be said but  I could not do it .

3 weeks

3 weeks of people talking  about him and her .3 weeks of sadness I never felt pain never experienced . I need to talk to him for they last time . I need to see his eyes he was the second most important person in my life . It felt like I had no air without him like a piece of me was missing.

Mandy ! Yes Mrs west . Call for me Xavier I need to have a an appointment with him and please organize  it somewhere private , Yes Mrs West. I finally had they courage to talk to him and I was gonna  wish him they best of luck but I needed to see him even if I can't kiss him or hug him.

What's wrong with you ?

You acting like a love sick pup.

You don't need a man !

Remember you run a company and have a child 

Get it together Aurora  West .

But l feel something for him

I just need to see him for they last time

One last time

Just to see  his beautiful eyes

Your making a mistake

Let me make a mistake but let me see him one last time before knowing that he is gonna be in another woman's arms.

Mrs West! Yes Mandy she said taking me out of my  tracing mind . Mr Xavier said he can meet up with you tomorrow only at 17:00 that's they only time he can talk to you before they wedding.
Okay thanks Mandy you can go .

Tomorrow was surely gonna be a day. I don't know what I am gonna do or say but I just  needed to go and pick up my daughter  from school...............
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They next day

Here i was at they cafe he recommended to Mandy to bring me here .I was feeling anxious,happy, angry , nervous and insecure not like me any more but today I felt like dressing they best i  could and still look professional even if we clearly not gonna talk about business .

What was i doing dressing up and thinking about someone's  soon to be husband.

16:59 I was starting to get worried and angry because everyone  knew that I like everything on time.

I looked around and they he was exactly on  time 17:00pm . He looked handsome with his black tux which he looked amazing in .  I turned around to not face him feeling ashamed of checking out someone's man . He sat on his chair now looking at me I could feel it even though I was looking down everything about him was they same expect for his perfume it smelt like a women's perfume. Mrs West you looking very stunning today he said his voice sending shivers in my body that I never felt , I final had they courage to look in those eyes that I have been wanting to see and they way they looked at me felt amazing. So what did you want to talk about  my dear  lady. Xavier first of all I wanted to give you my  blessings . Aurora you  can come to the wedding he said like he was amused and happy about me talking about his wedding he did not have   that spark like a married man  should have. Aiden had that spark you can even tell before he even spoke to you . stop Aurora just stop you  sound pathetic trying to make yourself believe that he ever felt anything for you.   

Aurora before you say something i wanted to show you  something before we talk about business,he took my hands and his finger touch sent shivers down my spine .Oh okay I said looking in his gaze looking uneasy .

.   He lead me outside they cafe and he lead me in his car. He drove in silence and I did not mind maybe because I was to caught up in mind  about where he was taking me.

Tension.

Words unsaid .

That's how  it felt

Like  I need him to say something.

A man who was about to get married I guess karma does exist because this kind of like Crystal story expect that Xavier does not love me he loves Belle.

We finally arrived and they place looked like a an burned abounded high school and i why he took me here. He opened they door for  me and lead  to where ever we were going and I  did not dare  say anything for some reason I felt safe around him.

We ended up on top of they roof and we sat together still he was  holding my hands  stopping shacking ! I always came here with her and we talked while we watched they stars. She always loved this place because she could think .

we had our first kiss here.

We had  our first date here.

We talked here everyday.

So why bring me Xavier if it means so much to you? Because I told myself that if I ever loved  a woman again I would tell her in to show Marilyn how happy I am and that I am nor more struggling  .  she said in my dream
let me see they sun rise let see it set for you shall show me they star you have shot in the sky of a thousand galaxies  show they one you are in love with  front of they stars so my soul has its rest and my heart shall be  rested in front they star she sees.

Well why bring me and not they woman you about to marry catching his unreadable gaze.

Because l love you Aurora West with his gaze on me while he said the word I never believed in

Love.