I will soon forget the color of your eyes (in editing)

chapter 7

*Authors note: sorry this is a really short chapter but I already updated today so…yeah. Enjoy*

TRIGGER WARNIGN: SUICIDAL ACTIONS, AND ME BEING A COMPLETE BITCH FOR DOING THIS. XD.

*Vic’s view*

It’s been a whole week since Kellin’s death, and I’m taking his passing quiet hard. I hardly get out of bed or eat. I just stare at the wall in front of me and think about him. I could have prevented that if I didn’t run off. If only I had talked to him about it, he wouldn’t be dead. His death was all my fault!

‘Great job vic. Kill your best friend, maybe you should do the same’

FUCK!

“Great the voice is back” I whisper, pulling the blankets off of me and pull on some jeans and a t-shirt. There was a knock on my door. I just mumble a ‘come in’ and sit on my bed as mike appears in the door way wearing a frown.

“What?” I ask.

“Get up” he walks over to me grabbing my wrist, making me hiss in pain and wiggle out of his grip. Mike just stares at me with wide eyes.

“What?” I ask cradling my arm. He makes a swift move to grab my arm again but I doge his hand and run out of my room and downstairs into the kitchen. I run outside into the backyard and hear mike running down the stairs. I panic and run for the gate, jumping it and run down the street. Before I know where my feet are taking me, I end up standing in front Kellin’s mom’s new house.

She moved to a nicer house when kellin died because his life insurance was a lot and she just could afford more now. This boiled my blood. I walked up to the door and pounded on it hard, tears running down my cheeks and anger flooding my head. Kellin’s mother happily opens the door and smiles at me.

“Oh hi, vic. Oh, Vic, honey what’s wrong?” I wanted to punch her so bad but I restrain myself and just kind of apologize for not being able to save kellin faster.

“Oh dear its ok. I knew he would kill himself soon or later” she smiled. My face held shock

“w-what?” I ask frozen in place from her words. If she actually means what she said then she is a sick and twisted lady for not getting him help.

“Yeah. He was either gunna starve to death or just kill himself off. I’ve been waiting for over a two months for that day. But now without a son I can afford so much more.” She said gesturing to her new house.

“You’re sick! Why didn’t you get kellin help? What did he ever do to you! He was your son for god sake!” I scream in her face, but she simply just smiled at me and looked down the street. I turn and look at what she is looking at and see mike walking up the porch.

“Mike dear tell Vic hear about our plan”

‘OUR PLAN? WTF!?’

“You told him? I thought we weren’t gunna tell him, dear?” oh what the fuck is happening.

“Sorry.”

“It’s ok.” Mike walked up to Ms. Quinn and pecked he lips. He turned and smiled at me.

“Oh Vic almost forgot you were here. Ah yes the plan. See Mary and I are in love and kellin was such a burden on her to where she was about to lose the house, and I couldn’t have her moving away so Mary and I started talking and started think of ways to get rid of kellin.” He smiled widely and continued “she told me how anorexic and depressed kellin was and so we just decided to place bottles of painkillers all around the house and we just waited. Luckily it didn’t take to long for him t finally give up. Thank you for making him think that we would all hate him, so thanks for that. You really helped our plan move significantly faster than we expected.” He turned to Kellin’s mom and planted his lips on hers and the kiss started to get heated. I couldn’t stand it. I run to the grass and throw up from disgust.

“Oh, honey I think Vic is getting sick. I’m gunna take him home.” Mike says concerned. When his hand touches my shoulder I flinch away and my blood is pumping with adrenaline from the anger I’m feeling toward my brother and Kellin’s mom. I turn and punch him as hard as I could in the jaw, making him fall to the ground. I run towards the bridge.

I couldn’t take it anymore. This world has gone mad. Kellin’s mom and MY brother planed Kellin’s suicide and are IN LOVE! When I reach the bridge I waste no time and climb over the stone railing. I look down at the water beneath me. I hear yelling in the distance, I turn my head and see mike and Mary running towards me yelling for me not to jump. But what other choice do I have? I couldn’t ever forgive mike and Mary for what they have done. I missed kellin too much. Hell, I think I loved the damn boy! I focus my attention back on the water rushing by under the bridge.

“Kellin, please forgive me.” I whisper as I jump down into the water. As soon as my bod makes contact with the water a sharp pain jolts threw my face

“Vic, wake the hell up!”

 I sit up in my bed cover in a cold sweat.

‘It was just a dream’

“It was just a dream” I whisper.

“Come on” mike says walking towards the door. “The hospital called and said kellin woke up this morning and wants to see you.” With that he closes the door leaving me alone with my thoughts.

‘It was just a dream’