Ohana

Sister Night

"I have the food you better have Elf ready on the TV!" Kara says walking in the door. Alex is sitting on her couch surrounded by blankets and pillows focused heavily on her computer she didn't see Kara come it. Alex jumps and closs her laptop at the sound of Kara dropping the food onto the coffee table.
Alex looks up, "oh hey Kara I didn't hear you come in."
Kara's crinkle pops out as she looks between Alex and her laptop. Kara walks into the kitchen to grab plates and a fork for Alex, she hates chop ticks.

"What were you looking at?"
Alex tenses thinking of a quick lie, "just some lab results from earlier today."
Kara sees straight through the lie but says nothing. She plops down next to Alex and begins to dish out the food. As they eat and watch the movie, Alex's heart starts to race. Her nerves getting the best of her. Half way through the movie Kara couldn't take it anymore, so she put down her food, pause the movie, and turns towards Alex.
"I know something is bothering you Alex I can hear it in your heartbeat."
Alex pouts, "I thought I told you not to use your superpowers on me."

"Don't beat around the bush Alex, I know something is bothering you." Kara says moving closer to Alex. Alex takes Kara's hands in hers to keep herself from fidgeting anymore than she already has.
She takes a moment to gather her thoughts before looking at Kara, "there is something that has been on my mind for a while and I think, no I know I'm ready. I want a baby."
Kara hesitates before smiling, "really? But you're not with anyone?"
Alex sighs, "I know, I know. I just don't see it happening with anyone, not after Maggie. Besides I'm already turning 30 next week; how much more time will it take? I don't want to be old and grey by the time my kid goes to college."

Kara brings Alex in for a hug, "if that's what you want to do then I'm happy for you. This kid is going to have the best aunt. "

Alex smiles, "thanks Kara. There actually something I was hoping you could help me with. I went to the doctors and I'm already to go I just need to pick out a donor. Would you help?"
Kara lit up, "of course I will. Wait is that what you were doing earlier?"
Alex nods, grabs her laptop, and opens it to the website the doctor gave her. She scrolls down, "there are so many to choose from I don't know how I'm going to choose."
Kara thinks for a moment before taking the laptop and closing it.

"Okay this is what we are going to do. You are going to tell me what type of traits you are looking for like height, weight, personality, physical features, the works. Then once we have that written down then we can make a list of a bunch of options. Okay?"
"Yea?"
Kara quickly gets up to grabs a paper and pen.
"Now what are you looking for."
Alex takes a minute to gather her thoughts, "he should be tall and not heavy but not too skinny. Smart and athletic but mostly smart. Also Brown hair and brown eyes."
Kara frowns, "but what about blonde with blue eyes?"
Alex chuckles, "Kara I'm not trying to have my kid look like you, no offense."

Kara pouts once more, "fine you win. This is a pretty good list, lets start looking."

They open the laptop and begin and scroll up to the top of the page. Elf is playing in the background as they go through their search.
It 's 11pm by the time Kara leaves, they gathered a list of 10 donors of which Alex couldn't decide. Alex cleans up and ready's herself for bed as the wheels keep turning in her head. This is such a monumental decision and she knows she shouldn't take it lightly. As she lays in bed, she thinks of what it would have been like to make this decision with Maggie. To go over each donor together, to laugh and make jokes about each and every one. Alex wonders what Maggie is doing, what her life has been like these last couple of years. She drifts to sleep thinking of what could have been and what will be.