Emotionally Lost Simply Me

my turn

I swear I wanted the best too
When every time things were smooth in your lives while mine didn't add up but still I was happy for you
All I ever wanted was for you to do the same ....to share happy moments of our life's
I always hope that one day I wll tell my story while I listened to yours
You were so much pressure
But it was hard to admit the fact
I wanted to be you
I wanted so much more
For your life was perfect in my eyes
For your beauty was my enemy
For you were told how beautiful you are and love become your daily dose
I wished for that too
Every direction boys screaming your name
For you change them every time
While I had no one to share my feelings with
But I was there
There in your happiness and sadness
I was never jealous of you
You are my friend and deserve better
What I felt didn't matter cos you gave me the opportunity to share your experience with me
Why now
Why I feel like you don't give me the support I deserve
Why can't I feel your happiness
Isn't my turn to be happy too
To tell my side of the story
To tell how happy I am now
Just as you always told me about your happiness
Where is the love I give in time of my miseries
When even I was not happy on how things were in my life
But your life was damn perfect
I want to feel what you felt all this years
Its time I tell my story
But I just feel like you think mY life is better than yours now
My question is have you considered how I felt
I guess it didn't matter
What matters now is I found my happiness
My dream
What i never had
I never had the story to tell
I have my fairy tale now
Enjoy it like I did with yours
Support is all I ask
Like I did this past 3 years